Fear
Are you ever afraid? Scared of the dark, of rejection, of being alone, or even scared to grow up? I am scared as I write this. I just finished writing and sent the last paper of the best semester of my life. I am scared of the future. As this semester comes to a close I am afraid that the future will not be able to live up to the last few months. Throughout this semester there have been a number of extremes for me, but I have thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it. I have been more stressed out, afraid of failure, more excited about life, more organized, more messy, more confused, busier, smarter about time management, and more rested than I feel I ever have been. At times I thought that I could move no further, then God would pull me through and I would be stronger than before. I have grown so much this semester and could not be happier about it. I have quit my first real "working world" job, I have been an intern in the children's ministry at my incredible church, I have become closer and closer to my best friend, learned how to better organize my time, gained what will be a sister, become "one of those", become more of the person I have always wanted to be, read entire books by choice, been in the Dallas Morning News and even publicly admitted to missing my brother, yes it happened. I don't know what happened, that made all these situations, that have changed me, but it has been amazing. I just have to say thank you to everyone who has had a part in my life the past few months. From my family, to Heather, to my roommates, and classmates you have all had a part in making me who I am today.
To my family and two best friends... you have been there with me through it all. You never failed me and I owe you so much for that. I love you and will never forget the blessing you have been to me.
All in all, I am very scared that the future will not be able to live up to this semester, but at the same time I know it will make me a better person and therefore look forward to it. Wish me luck, as I go boldly into the unknown... name that movie
