ya havent written in a while but o well rite? kinda been stressed out so wutever....not much 2 say really just kinda blah rite now....but i dun really feel like written so i'm goin 2 go & make sure alls set 4 tom (regalia) 7 i'll update sumtime l8r

i just found out some terrible news....i mean if i told what it was most would think it was stupid but ya just pray for me and all involved even though you dont know whats going on...thnx soo much

ya wana list of things i want 4 my bday? well whether or not u do here it iz...
1 steve nash's hair...yes i know i luv long hair
2 city of angels dvd...the pg13 version dustin!!!
3 steve nash jersey
4 clothes..wut chik doesnt like clothes but i am picky so b careful...or u could just take me & we could chill even better 4 a present
5 gift cards easy rite?
6 money....who doesnt like money?
7 all my friends 2 b happy..weird but true
8 go 2 paris...i know not happenin but i can dream
9 things that have happened 2 b resolved
10 & last but not least....1 heck of a bday no matter how i spend it

ok now 4 the blabbin that i do so well....yes i enjoy it but eh. anywayz how iz every1? i'm good things r gettin better & worse but its life & its all good anywayz...

i love my friends lemme just say that & i know its kinda random but its true & i dun wana not say it & then not b able 2 some day ya know? that would just suck...cuz i can't even express how much i love yall guys. you mean so much to me cuz yur always there for me whether i want you to be or not but you always know when you should. i love the way all of you can make my day better when i need it, and how i can go chill wit sum of yall & 4get bout my probs. i would b here all nite if i wanted 2 name all the reasons so i'll leave it there but you know who you are and ill say it once more....I love you!!!

ok anywayz..question...what is one thing that you wish you could change in your past? i wont say mine cuz only the people that needa know do but i'd love 2 hear yalls answers so u better tell me! lol...g'day

its been awhile ya but ya i havent been 2 talkative lately...o well a lot has been goin on lately 2...thinkin a lot, doin stuff, & then ya of coarse regalia iz comin up & then carries bday was fri.

speakin of her bday i luv carrie i really do & hope her bday wuz great but sat nite we all as in all her friends went out 2 eat & of coarse there wuz a lot of us so there wuz a long wait but ya know wut? i'm sick of how high schoolers think!!! i mean yes i know i am one but i dont believe that i think the same as most others...i c myself as very diff than A LOT of people & am proud of it. i mean they r so close-minded its stupid how bad it iz. i mean its stupid in the 1st place i mean really. just cuz u dun know sum1 doesnt mean u cant talk 2 them ya know? i mean there wuz a lot of us & granted some of us knew each other & sum of us didnt but the 1s that didnt wouldnt talk 2 any1 else...it wuz so ugh! i hate high school cuz of that!!!its sucha drama driven world that is so stupid its not even funny.....

anyways enough bout that...i've been thinkin a lot lately & a friend raised a question the other day...is it possible to fix things that u screwed up in the past?....i've been thinkin bout that a lot & a lot has been goin on & idn wut 2 make of it ya know? i know some things that have happened in the past that people have wished never happened but i mean u cant change the past. u can only hope for the future 2 b that much better so that it makes up for it. in answer to what this person wants to know i still dont know how to say it but i will say this...things can b old & yet very new at the same time...in other words u can b familiar wit sumthin b4 and then not have anything 2 do wit it 4 awhile & then even tho they knew it at one time so well they have changed so its all new c?

ok i'm goin 2 stop blabbin & go watch tv wit a friend since i'm not really in2 the whole football scene...ya know the super bowl so ya..l8rz