Nov 10, 2004

Well I know it has been awhile, but I have been so busy it's crazy. Senior year is kickig my butt when it comes to how much I am doing. I have decided that I am dropping out of Ac-Dec because it is demanding time that I don't have to give. I am not proud of it but yes. I have to have time to sleep, eat, breathe, you know the usual.

For other news, I got my proofs back for my senior pictures and I love them. It is something new for me and I love it. They are awesome and I can't wait till I can give wallets to people. I hope they love them as much as I do.

Let's see what else is there? Well Fall Fastbreak was great. I will miss that so much next year. Just a quick break from society and all of it's temptations and dramas. I thought a lot while I was there about college and some of my friends and the impact I am leaving on them. I will miss them more than words can express and a few in particular but that is life right? I will miss randomly showing up at Alan's house and talking to him while I play with Sherman. Or showing up at Amanda's and almost being tackled by her giving me a huge hug. Or anything like that. I am going to miss jsut being able to say 'I need you' and they are right there for me to cry on their shoulder if need be. I know that I will make new friends and that life is still going to be great and everything, but I know that I will miss some people here so much it might even put a haze over the fun I can have in college. I know I will miss coming home to my parents after a long day and just hanging out with them while watching tv, as my dad grimmaces and pops my toes. I will miss going to school t Naaman, no matter how strange that might make me sound. I will miss going to high school football games(the last of which was this past friday). I know I need to not worry about it but my best friend in the entire world is here. I don't want to leave. He has taken me through so much and no matter what I know he is there whther we are having problems between us or not. We have known each other for so long we can finish each others sentances and everything and the feeling I get when I'm around him is identical to none other. Not only him but my gorgeous Amanda is here and with her I have more fun than I ever have and that's all in one night. We get into trouble and still make fun out of it. She makes me laugh so hard my eyes are watering and it feels like I just did a hundred sit-ups. All my other friends are here too. I mean I know a lot of them will be going of to college as well but few if any to where I am. I just will miss this life. I say 'this life' because I know that once I leave it will never be the same. I will not have the same feeling around Alan. It will not be the same to get into trouble with Amanda. I guess I just want to say that I want to live this life to the fullest while I'm here. I love you guys.

MOre to come later but for now I am off to chill with Carrie. Peace all.