dun really feel like writin but i'm goin 2 anywayz cuz well i'm bout 2 scream & i dun wana do that 2 adri (whos ova by the way) so ya....why must people act one way around people but when you get them alone or sumthin they r like totally diff? i hate that i want 2 make that stop but how? how iz that possible? Impossible rite? no nuthin iz impossible but its just the how to where i get confused.....grrrr. ok i'm fine i'm cool i'm ok.....i'm goin 2 go tho...here's a short version of my day..i did stuff, had sum various emotions & well now i'm gettin off of this dang thing....

good day & besides the kinda bad hair day i actually thought i looked decent crazy rite? i know i know its madness. i wore a skirt if you can take any more craziness. ya i was all preppied out. well the school day wuz well school but i got a nap in alg. & english wuz awesome & then lunch wuz fun as usual & 4th wuznt 2 horribly bad & then after school wuz kinda dull but i got my ring back!! yay! i luv my ring! i picked it out when i wuz a fish when my bro wuz gettin his & got the exact same 1 i picked back then...cool huh? that or i'm just lame lol or weird that works to lol. well then i cam back home and chilled 4 a few and then went off 2 my alans bball game & they won. it was so cute! i luv him! then kevin called & i came home & the stupid game wuz on a channel that i dun have...THAT SUCKED SOO BAD! that and i hate like absolutely hate drivin in rain & well i got 2 all day joy lemme tell ya & kevin heard all bout all that lol bet he enjoyed it lol not! but he had a headache (migraine sry 4 not sayin it rite lol) & it wuz sad but he went 2 bed or sumthin & ya. THE MAVS WON THO!!! it wuz awesome even tho i didnt get 2 watch the game i kept up wit the internet..great idea. went 2 jacks wit ck & had sum fun there while talkin sum stuff out that needs 2 b worked through but its all good. now i'm home 4 the nite & free of parents mite i add. I love my parents & all but sumtimes i need my space ya know? but o well daddy comes home tom. nite & i got the play then so i wont even b home. But i'm goin 2 go 4 the day cuz ck iz spendin the nite cuz she dun want me alone at home all nite so ya....then we got a bball game early in the mornin so hope ya had a good day...g'nite all

pretty good day...got my nails done...another 1a those feelings i love but don't get very often but hey whatever. if ya ever wana give me something that'd i'll love you 4ever for its a foot massage lol. nah that & i hung out wit ck for a few and then came home to have the house to myself..sweet rite? ya then kevin calls & we talk 4 awhile & then i just chilled listened 2 music & did hw...theres 1 more thing i wana do 2day...we'll c if i get 2...

ya know what? i have wanted to go to a dance since i was in like 5th grade but crappy gca didn't have dances & then i go to naaman & well i'm never asked to any. so ya know what? i'm going to regalia this yr no matter whatever i have to do. I'm a freaking junior in high school and never have been asked to a dance so i mite as well ask myself and go rite? granted i'm goin to ask a friend to go with me mite that be a guy or chik it doesnt really matter rite? as long as i have fun. I know i mite sound kinda lame by sayin all this but i guess i'm a lame person & if not that i am definitely weird so that could explain it i guess. all i know iz i wuz sitting watching tv and it occurred to me. I don't want to finish high school in a year and have gone to one dance & watch i prob wont have a real date 4 that but wutevr rite? anywayz....i'm gone 4 now i'll write more l8r

ya know what? i have wanted to go to a dance since i was in like 5th grade but crappy gca didn't have dances & then i go to naaman & well i'm never asked to any. so ya know what? i'm going to regalia this yr no matter whatever i have to do. I'm a freaking junior in high school and never have been asked to a dance so i mite as well ask myself and go rite? granted i'm goin to ask a friend to go with me mite that be a guy or chik it doesnt really matter rite? as long as i have fun. I know i mite sound kinda lame by sayin all this but i guess i'm a lame person & if not that i am definitely weird so that could explain it i guess. all i know iz i wuz sitting watching tv and it occurred to me. I don't want to finish high school in a year and have gone to one dance & watch i prob wont have a real date 4 that but wutevr rite? anywayz....i'm gone 4 now i'll write more l8r

mavs won!!! great game man...won in double overtime how sweet iz that? ok yes they shoulda won rite at the end of the 4th but stinkin finley missed 3 3pointers in a row...how gay iz that? really i know...& poor nash hez really gotta b hurtin...but i'm off to bed 2 try 2 sleep as alwayz & tom. i got physics so maybe a nap is in store 4 me...that would b nice..well ya g'nite all

ok now i know it's kinda a late post but hey its here rite? ya uh huh...anywayz..2day wuz pretty cool i mean nuthin bad or anything. school was ok & I got 2 go ova & hang out at my adri's house after school then i went and got a haircut...i love the feeling of someone messin with my hair. i know it's not just me but isn't it great? I wish i could have that feeling more often than when i get a haircut but i'll get what i can rite?

Nash is still hurt & it makes me sad so far hez gone out the game multiple time because of the pain. He had to leave the 3rd quarter after 2 minutes and then had to even go back to the trainer. That's just not cool. I hope he gets better not only because hes my fav player but because that has gotta suck.

well i don't know what else to really say for today...kind of a blah day but cool if that makes any sense. And to add to what I said yesterday about change and people changing. There is some changes going on in my life and it's incredibly weird. I mean theres two major people and then a few minor people. The two major people are giving me two totally opposite emotions & well for the one i'm just not angry but not like depressed i guess i could say sad. The other well it makes me happy whats going on but at the same time confuses me ya know? But what can ya do rite?

I'm going to go now and I'd just like to say this first( i know i do sumthin of this sort like everyday but deal wit it ok?): I just want all of my friends to know that no matter what I say or do that might be hurtful or cause bad feelings... I will always love you and nothing will ever change that. And that includes everyone that has ever been there for me or whatever. I'd list names but that could take me all night and well as kevin said 'you don't get enough sleep already' granted he said that arguing that i shouldn't drink coffee but i think it applies here too. : )

back again & still got that stupid headache..o well! nah nuthin much happenin but i just felt like written so here i am. ya know wut iznt fun? layin in a bed all day long cept 4 like when i gotta p or get food or a drink or sumthin ya know. then add hw 2 that mix & ugh man its bad...then theres the fact u feel all gross cuz u havent taken a shower & u just get sick of layin down but dun have the energy 2 get up? ya but o well my time 2 stop complaining...yes again....i do it a lot it seems. Well i'm off 4 the day now...gotta find sumthin i've been lookin 4...yes that would b my mind

ya...2day has been ok, not great not bad but ok. I stayed home from school cuz well i accidentally slept in & then when i woke up at 630 i had a migraine so ya. I'm good now still gotta lil bit of a headache but its all good. I didnt wake up till 1 and then i have been pretty much just laying there watching tv ever since. I kinda couldn't sleep again last night so i'm thinking that that coulda had to do with it but who knowz. Its not a big deal.

Man i dont want to go back 2 school again tom. tho. why? cuz i dun know wut happened but school just isn't my thing anymore. I used to b 1 of those weird people that wuz like drivin by the school during the summer & would say stuff like "I can't wait to go back!" . Now i'm kinda like "do i ever have 2 go again?" cuz i hate it now...Why? i dun know...things change thats my excuse. It could b that certain people aren't the same as they used 2 b. And that could apply to people not at school as well. I'm weird when it comes to change. At times i welcome and beg for it & other times i push it away & try not to acknowledge it. ugh...life happens tho rite? Well i'm off 2 go lay down sum more..joy lemme tell ya

ugh...2day wuz not cool....i hate yrbook w/ a passion...its like the worst class ever..i mean its prob just the teacher but ugh that alone sadly made my day like horrible. I mean didnt really do anything wrong, granted i'm not the quickest person when i'm doin sumthin but bein a jerk bout it wont help me. I'm workin my butt off & shez almost failin me cuz ' didnt do it on time.' HELLO!!! I'm not on the photography staff so i can't really go take pics 4 my spreads...i have other things 2 do like write a story, get quotes, write captions, plan my next spread, & so on...I dont need to hear it from some cheerleading coach that wants a second job as a teacher. She wont even stay after school if we actually want to work on our spreads cuz shez gotta 'go 2 work'. again..HELLO!!! you are at work! you work for gisd as a teacher and journalism advisor...that should b your main job not stinkin cheerleading. Yes, i know some of this anger towards this woman could b cuz of the fact the i hate cheerleading in most aspects. I just wish i would have quit when i had the chance. I wish i could go back & not even ever sign up 4 it. I would have so much more i could do instead but life happens rite?

well enough complaining for one day, i did have a lot of fun w/ my sexy adri (adrienne for all those that r confused)...we went out after school & all. I luv her shez great. her mothers havin a baby tom...exciting rite? i think so but get this..another chik! 5 women & 1 man in 1 house wit 2 bathrooms...crazy stuff but i know that woody iz really happy about it and i would b too.

I can't wait 2 have kids. Don't get me wrong it's not like i want them rite now (well...) i want a husband to blame it on lol jus messin. I want them so bad. I want a family so bad. I want to be out of high school so bad. out of this drama crazed world that says you have to have a b/f, or you have to look like this, or you have to talk like this. I do however fall into this every now & then but I mean i love my life & all but the whole name our generation gets iz terrible. I hate it. I wish we could all just grow up & be more mature and understand that the world doesn't revolve around us. I thought i said enough complaining tho...oops my bad.

Well i'm signin off 4 the day & with this.....I love all my friends and family but am i the only one that sometimes feels that i just want to get away from everything & everyone 4 like a month or so?

my 1st post...amazing rite? ya i know its not cuz its just me rite? anywayz...now the few people that love me enough 2 read this will maybe know how my strange little mind works...& yes little mind cuz i am kinda slow o well tho

so the mavs...aren't they the best? i mean they got nash, nowitzki, najera, & other great players...i cant wait till the next game i get 2 go 2...i went fri nite & bein the teenager i am i didn't think goin wit my dad & bro would b 2 incredibly much fun but it wuz...like wow it wuz! i got a shirt 2! i wanted a jersey tho but i'll get 1 sum day man, wutever i have 2 do, i will! lol. me of all people now likes bball...ok not likes it luvs it as long as i'm watchin & not playin that iz lol...i'm not exactly the greatest at sports...but o well rite? life happens

school...ugh who else hates it? i mean last yr it wuz just eh ya know but then last semester wuz great then this semester well so far iznt 2 fun. my clases r all a bunch of people that r all loud & annoyin & all..o well tho rite? maybe next yr. will b better...but here's a scary thought ...Me! a senior in h.s.! how weird rite?

well i'm goin 2 finish this 1st one up with a question i alwayz wonder about...wut do u think about me? like as in everything....if yur my friend in anyway or just an acquaintance i wana know & if ya dun mind sharing i'll luv ya 4ever...granted i will anywayz but work wit me lol