Why is it that the people you love the most can let you down and hurt you the most? I just was wanting to get that out...leave me a comment and let me know what you think about that subject.

Well I'm back to post for today. I don't feel well still but a trying not to complain too much. I'm suposed to go back to school tom. and we'll see how that goes. I was told that I had an upper respritory infection and then I still didn't feel well today so I went back and they said I also had a virus that they couldn't give me anything for. It sucks but eh I'm good I guess. I've been home for the past two days from school and didn't go to church sunday and yea. I miss people. I miss my friends from school and church. I want to see them again. I know I know it has only been tree days what am I going to do next year. But it isn't next year it is this year and I better get a hug from everyone when I go back tom.

So I'm officially going to Baylor and applied for housing the other day. It's getting to be exciting and I'm taking another college day in Feb. to chill in Waco with the fam and just get used to it a bit ya know? I can't wait to go...It is going to rock so hard! But I got a few more months to go.


I turn 18 in esactly 1 month!!!! Leave a message for me in the lil box thing to lemme know what I should do for it.


I'm out for today. I'm going to go chill and relax before going to bed and all. I love you all! Never forget that!

So...still sick, still miserable, I wish it would end. I'm so ugh. My throat feels like someone lit it on fire, my head feels like someone decided my brain needed a jackhammer, and my nose is running like an olypmic sprinter. Craziness i tell you. its not cool though & i stayed home from school today cuz of it. Hopefully i'll get better...cuz this sucks...bad! well i'm out...gettin dizzy

So you've been sick rite? Of coarse you have...everyone has. Well haven't you ever wanted someone to bring you a card or just come by to give you a hug or what not? Just to make you feel good cuz you're sick? I love it when people do that,like when Patti Bibel came and brought me a hude slurpee after i got in my big wreck my sophmore year and had all those problems from it. That was like so awesome. But whatever, my parents know how to treat me if I'm sick....I guess that's all that counts. I'm out cuz I'm suposed be resting....G'day

So a new post, what can become of it? Who knows....Oh well.

So you ever stop and think about how much you really know someone? I mean granted you can know them all your life and not know them at all. It's true. It is amazing to think that after all the time you have spent tackling to someone means nothing when it comes down to it. You Canoga through so many things with someone and not have gotten anywhere. You can know so much about a person but not know what they are going to do next. You don't know if they really care about you or not. You don't know what they really think of you. You could never truly know what the inner thoughts of a person are because just because you know someone's name or where they live or where thy work or what not doesn't mean that they will really show you who they are. They could be putting up a front everytime they see you, or they just might never really express what they feel. They could do something one moment and the next do something totally 'unlike them'. Who's to say it is or isn't them? Who are you to judge that someone is one way or another? You might think they are this awesome, great person, that is incredibly sweet and funny and good and then all the sudden everything changes before you can even blink. How cruel and screwed up is this world we live in? It is more and more corrupt everytime I walk out the door. I'm almost scared to go places sometimes because just think, you never know when someone you hold so dear could be there and be doing something that you always thought was below them. It isn't a very great thing to think of but it happens every day to and to everyone. I just had to let that out. Hope you all never have to experience it.

I'm off to go exercise so I can look all hott in my prom dress come may 7th. And of coarse my regalia dress come Feb. But yes I'm out. G'day all!

i got a new cell yest.! yay! i'm back home by the way...loving it. I'm out though just wanted to tell ya bout my phone...oh & it's a camera phone...sweet! off to get my nails done...peace

post a memory of me.
it can be anything you want.
then post this in your journal.
see what people remember about you.


you know u luv me so spill!

So I'm at my uncle's house chillin after opening some pretty cool presents. I got some lip gloss because everyone knows I'm lacking in that area, lol yea right! I love it though. I also got some bucks which is always tite and then some spray & lotion stuff and then a pen set thing which is pretty cool. I will prob. use that for all my poetry and that mess. I haven't written a lot lately, but I plan to write at least a bit while I'm up here visiting family. I usually have some time to. I wrote one and text messaged it to a friend lately but I don't know which cell I was using and I think I might have deleted it so...so much for that I guess. I thought it was pretty good, although I kind of am bias. The trip up here was actually pretty nice. Got a headache as usual but lied down and turned up the cd player and it went away pretty fast which is rather unusual. But yes, it was nice.

Well I do have something to admit or rather say I don't know but yes...Spending time with family is becoming more and more special as I'm becoming older. I don't know why I guess it is because of getting older and learning to appreciate how important family really is. I mean, it isn't that I thought at some point they weren't but it is just becoming more and more apparent. I crave the time I spend with them in order to get my fill, per say. The only thing is that that just means time missed with friends who I love dearly as well, but family I don't know it is different. The whole blood thing kind of changes things you know? lol I will miss all of this next year though when I go off to Baylor and granted I will make new friends and have my almost 'separate life' but it will never be the same. I will always treasure the days of my high school years even though so much drama happened. I have a passion for life that runs very deeply in my heart and the good comes with the bad. The bad only causes you to truly appreciate the good. I love life and I love everything that my gracious God has given me. He has blessed me so much that I could never thank Him enough even if I wrote it out until I died or said it until then. I know I'm going into ministry and all but even still there is not enough in this world that I could give to God in order to pay Him back. Luckily He doesn't expect us to. That is how great His love is.

DON'T FORGET ABOUT MY NEW YEARS PARTAAY! Call the cell ...2148821105

So I get my new phone when we get back to good ol Texas which is pretty exciting. I love cell phones. They amuse me to no end. I can sit for hours and just play with them. Yes, I can be that pathetic. Technology will prob. Never cease to amaze me. I'm going to have a camera on my new cell and am going to take many pictures in order to be able to see the people I love most when I'm not able to actually see them in person. I will hold that phone very highly because it will be capable of reminding me in times of being down, of the great people I have back home in D-town or up here In Missouri that love me no matter what. I love that. It is another thing that will never cease to amaze me.

I'm going to go now and try to persuade someone to go out in the cold to get my poetry spiral in order for me to write or share some of it. Hope yall are having a great Christmas (or sorry 'Winter') Break. love you all. G'day!

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Well this is my Christmas post and I hope everyone's was as great as mine. I had an awesome time last night when we opened presents I got some awesome stuff that I just love.
->necklace from dustin
->clothes
-> cd's
->Shrek 2
-> a massage
->& the joy of seeing my family happy
Today we chilled for a while and then went to go see a movie. We saw Meet the Fockers. It was so funny. I really liked it. In my opinion it was better than the first Oh I just want to say that I love you all and prob. won't post for awhile because the fam is going out of town for a few days but....


COME OVER TO MY HOUSE FOR NEW YEARS!!! I'M HAVIN A SHIN DIG! C'MON I NEED SOMEONE TO KISS AT MIDNIGHT..LOL! Call me or text me ...its my mothers cell since mine's dead.....i'll give you details...k? so yes come...
that's about it for now, I'm going to head out and chill before the long drive tom. G'day all!

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! I can't stop smiling! I just found out I got accepted to BAYLOR!!! I'm so excited! Hold one sec.......OK I had to do a lil happy dance. EEK! I'm soo happy! YAY! I'm going to Baylor! Sic em bears! Here I come Waco!

I'm only one person
In this big world
Only one woman
Frightened by love
Diving in and being hurt
Yet shrinking farther and farther away
From all the emotions flooding through
All in my mind and through my heart
Make it stop I only want
Someone to love and care
For me as much I do them.

I just felt like writing, don't take it to mean anything just yeah. I'm out.

:x: name: Danita
:x: height: 5'2 1/2"
:x: shoe size: 6 1/2
:x: siblings: older bro
:x: eyes: well if they aren't changin..i like it when they're silverish blue
:x: college: instate: BU...Sic 'em bears!! out of state: idk
:x: jr.high: GCA
:x: elementary: GCA
:x: hometown: R-town...lol Rowlett
:x: favorite place: my truck wit my best friends wit the music up
:x: favorite soda: diet dr. pepper
:x: game system: so is that like a computer or like a board game? i'm confused
:x: favorite food: french
:x: favorite book: anything poetry
:x: favorite pen: am I supposed 2 have 1?
:x: favorite car: H2 or F150 Lightning
:x: favorite animal: dog duh!
:x: waterbrand: fiji or evian
:x: favorite burger place: red robin or wendys or sonic
:x: favorite hobby: poetry
:x: favorite friends: it's not nice to pick favorites
:x: bar or club: club
:x: favorite vitamins: umm I wasn't told I needed to know
:x: favorite show: Family Guy, Friends, (don't kill me cuz I’m a sucker but..) Days of our Lives
:x: favorite news: none unless it's sports I like sweaty men running back and forth
:x: gold or silver: silver w/o a doubt
:x: favorite dog: why my baby of coarse
:x: cell phone co.: uhh idk
:x: favorite shirt: depends what mood
:x: favorite sport: only to watch of coarse but bball baby! oh those sexy men...like Nash! ;)
:x: favorite alcohol: ummm wine lol I have no clue dun drink
:x: favorite computer: ours died :'(
:x: favorite fruit: umm idk depends
:x: favorite song: Elephant Love Song, Cold, Every Little Thing, and I Can Only Imagine
:x: ketchup or salsa: ahhh salsa yumm
:x: favorite milkshake: chocolate but why must it be fattening
:x: steak or lobster: woah buddy, steak all the way<----- to quote my manda...oh by the way my bro & I have a campaign Save the Lobsters!!! Let me know if you would like to join
:x: favorite color: black...weird I know
:x: favorite weather: windy but not to much and about 65ish
:x: favorite states: do other countries count?
you?
:x: have a crush on someone: not at this time
:x: wish you could live somewhere else: you should know me better than that
:x: think about suicide: not at all
:x: believe in online dating: are you crazy, I believe so
:x: think others find you attractive: some say they do
:x: want more piercings: why of coarse
:x: like cleaning: I’m sometimes in the mood
:x: like roller coasters: why yes, I miss them it's been too long
:x: write in cursive or print: print wit my twist
:x: last talked to: chuck(dustin) I couldn't get the sound 2 work
:x: last thought of: that should be a given
:x: last showered: yest. b4 the mavs game
:x: last cut your nails: last manicure, umm I think maybe a month ago
:x: last did laundry: awhile ago
:x: last hugged a tree: few months
:x: last watched anime: I’m sorry I like to spend my time wisely by doing things like filling this out
:x: last prayed: today
for or against?
:x: long distant relationships: against.
:x: killing people: in war? or what
:x: teenage smoking: smoking at all: so insanely against
:x: driving drunk: against
:x: gay/lesbian relationships: against
:x: soap operas: for...I gotta see days next week...Sean finds out the truth about Jan
have you?
:x: ever cried over a girl: my great grandma who died
:x: ever been in a fist fight: yes
:x: ever been arrested: not yet lol
:x: ever had a friend die: yes, my dog in 5th grade....saddest moment of my life
:x: ever dated a cousin: I live in TX not Arkansas thnx
:x: ever used a gun: I wish, I’ve always thought it would b exciting, I wana go hunting
:x: ever frenched kiss: why of coarse, don't you people know I love everything french??
:x: ever finished a puzzle: yes many
:x: ever got surgery: yup
:x: ever got beat up: not yet
:x: ever hated someone: no that's just mean
:x: ever made a huge mistake: yea who hasn't
:x: ever tried any drugs: I’m not stupid
:x: ever jogged a mile: that’s another reason I failed p.e. <---- me and manda r so alike
:x: ever played w/ someone's feelings: oops
:x: ever had feelings for someone young: heh heh heh...not at all can't u see my halo?
what?
:x: shoes do you wear: I love shoes
:x: are you scared of: windows!!!
:x: do you sleep in: um depends really, normally sum cheerleader or satin shorts & a spaghetti strap
:x: did you eat for lunch: chicken from chili’s
:x: is love: an amazing gift from God if it is true
number?
:x: of times I have had my heart broken?: enough to have learned many lessons
:x: of hearts I have broken?: just a few
:x: of girls I have kissed?: um 3 I think....they're friends & it wuz on the cheek
:x: of boys I have kissed?: 4 I think
:x: of guys/girls you've rejected?: umm 3 sounds about rite
:x: of drugs you taken: I collect em baby
:x: of accidents you been in: about 3 I think
:x: of people you lead on?: have I told you lately how good you are looking in that oh so sexy shirt? and that cologne grrr
:x: of people you broke up with?: 2
do you think you are?
:x: pretty: I’m told so
:x: funny: I crack myself up. <-----again we are so alike
:x: hot: I’m very hot natures, I hate it
:x: friendly: yuppers
:x: ugly: uh not so much
:x: loveable: I would hope so
:x: caring: def. I’m told I care too much sometimes
:x: dorky: that is so much fun I love bein dorky
:x: cocky: not at all
:x: girly: at times
:x: boyish: at times
:x: smart: at some points
:x: pimp: I do what I can lol
:x: angel: I love men too much, ok?
:x: gangster: not quite
:x: god: there is only 1 of those and it has a capital G
favorite?
:x: five letter word: boogy
:x: comedian: do they have 2 b famous?
:x: candy: ugh so fatty but prob suckers or something
:x: cartoon: Family Guy
:x: cereal: usually fruity pebbles
:x: chewing gum: orbit
:x: day of week: every week is different
:x: least fave day: wut did I just say?
:x: Jell-O flavor: strawberry
:x: summer/winter: depends what I want to wear
:x: trampolines or swimming pools: pools duh
who?
:x: slept in your bed: besides me? my baby
:x: saw you cry: um somebody saw me? you can't prove it
:x: made you cry: uhh
:x: you went to the movies with: the ol fam....national treasure, ah nic cage is so hott
:x: yelled at you: last? idk
:x: sent you an email: collegeboard.com
have you ever?
:x: said "I love you" and meant it?: everyday
:x: gone out in public in your pajamas?: all the time
:x: kept a secret from everyone?: for two years
:x: cried during a movie?: yes I’m pathetic
:x: ever at anytime owned new kids on the block?: well last time I checked it was illegal to actually own children
:x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: I have a life thanks though
:x: been on stage?: why yes, when I was little I performed in a dance recital & 2 plays 1 of which I was the caterpillar from Alice in wonderland... wuz awesome
:x: been to New York?: it's so awesome there....got a great massage there 2
:x: been to California?: unfortunately
:x: been to Florida?: yup once....pretty cool place
:x: Hawaii?: yea but I was only 2 or so
:x: China?: nope
:x: Canada?: I would love to go!<----manda lets go together!
:x: Europe?: can't wait to go back
:x: what time is it now?: 12:17 am
:x: apples or bananas?: well am I at home? cuz if I am I have to share with my puppy either way so I don't know, he likes bananas more
:x: blue or red?: but of coarse blue
:x: walmart or target?: it's all about the walmartness....I love that place I could spend hours there....and have on many occasions
:x: spring or fall?: fall I think
:x: what are you gonna do after you finish this?: tv, sleep, that sorta thing
:x: what was the last meal you ate?: well it was at Medieval Times for dinner (a Christmas present early form daddy...thank you!!!) & it wuz chicken & potatoes, & bread, & soup & coffee, & a apple thing...quite yummy
:x: are you bored?: I can't help loving, how wonderful life is now you're in looooovee....as you see I got music goin so of coarse not
:x: last noise you heard?: Ewan Mcgregor
:x: last smell you sniffed: my puppy, again I know I’m weird
:x: last time you went out of state/province?: wow I don't even remember
friendship/love?
:x: do you believe in love at first sight?: no
:x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: oh I can't wait and 2 a boy and a girl
:x: most important thing to you in a friendship is?: honesty... down to earth<-----can you se why we are best friends???
random stuff?
:x: criminal record?: nope
:x: do you speak any other languages?: I attempt it but french isn't easy
:x: name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: well, my cowboy hats, presents from people, cards, dried flowers & pictures
:x: piercings and where?: 2, ears
:x: worst feeling in the world?: being wrong or bein lied to
:x: whom you love: everyone but some in particular
your?
:x: nickname(s): bill, dc, d, chik, sexy beast, babychick, munchkin, oompa loompa, & the list goes on
:x: initials: DSC
:x: how old do you look?: the oldest I’ve gotten was 15
:x: how old do you act?: depends who I’m with
:x: glasses/contacts?: contacts most of the time if not glasses
:x: braces: nope never
:x: do you have any pets?: 2 dogs
:x: you get: uhh? a paycheck every now & then idk

I know I know, yet again.....this is my place to spill and that I shall....

So why is it that it seemsthat the people that tried ruining one thing in your life somehow end up ruining something else as well? I didn't do anything and yet this chik is all over spreading stuff about me and taking all my guy friends from me. First it was the whole homecoming gig and now it's another good friend of mine. Why do people have to be so rude? Well I'm not going to go into details so I'm out before I say to much.

So yet again something on my mind, what a surprise rite? Ok not really seeing as I'm one of those people that constantly thinks and over things until they are so insanely screwed up in my head that even if I tried to sort them back out it would come out like a jigsaw puzzle that was put in a blender, Yes, I know I’m strange but just deal ok? Ok, now on with my rambling on about my blenderized thoughts...

I got this one thought going through my head about how I'm never going to find the right guy...well I know I will if it is God's plan and I know that I just need to have patience and blah blah blah. Well I can do that but do you know what I really want? I want what I used to have. The best guy friend in the entire world. Better than any other a girl could have. One where it doesn't matter that you just came form your boyfriend's house and you are holding hands with him. One that you can cuddle with and just hold and there are no worries about oh maybe he likes me or vise versa. I miss being able to just call and talk to him for hours upon end about nothing in particular and laugh about everything and anything just because you know the person so well you can almost tell what they are thinking and it just makes you love them so much more. I miss the fact that when something happened neither one of us ever hesitated to pick up the phone right away and call the other without even thinking 'hmm I need to tell them'. I miss just being able to go over there and it not be weird. I miss the warmth of his arms around me and just the feeling I got when he was around. I miss being able to tell him anything and everything and him soaking it all in and not getting bored hearing about all of my crazy drama. I miss the times he would spend the night and when my parents would go to bed he would sit in the hallway and talk so that he wasn't breaking the rules but yet we could stay up and talk half the night. I miss how we could stare into each other's eyes and get lost inside. I miss the friendship I once had. The one that at some point all went bad. I miss the love I have now lost. I would try to get back at all cost, if only I had faith in me, and the future I could better see.



Ok it kind of ended up like a poem but not quite but thats my blabber for today....and yes I haven't taken my zoloft for a couple days so my posts have been a bit down but well thats me so whatever. I just took it a few minutes ago though so it's all good. I will be going now and shall try to update soon. G'day!

I'm back for yet more ranting and I really don't care if you don't like it because it's not for you to decide what I write on here...it's my decision so if ya don't like it don't read it...
Anyway, why is it that society relies so heavily on medications? Is it just me or is it just pathetic? I man I myself take certain prescriptions on a daily basis or almost and well just think....what happened when people didn’t have depression medicine or allergy medicine or what not. I mean they lived they were happy they survived. No big deal yet in today’s world everyone must be upbeat and peppy and oh so cheery all the time. Well ya know what some times people have bad days, and there's not a thing you can do about it. They'll get over it and you will to. Ok just had to say that

Now um let's see only one more day and one more semester until I have no more high school left whatsoever. Weird. I have a lot of things going through my head and well I can't even explain it all. I just wana get it all out. I wana go outa town by myself and just work stuff out in my head for a few days. I just want to get away form everything going on and everybody. No offense to anyone I just wants some time alone to relax and sort myself out. I just wana get it all off my mind. Anyway.... I’m out just wanted to say that.

F:

Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile

Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Planet: Mars Hair
Color: Red Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"Appearances can be deceiving."

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So time for my rant that I have wanted to get out but didn’t want to bore one person so I shall more multiple instead. Not really I just don't want to get all up in someone's face and yea. But anyway...

So why is it that people can't just say something when it is on their mind and you know they are thinking it? I mean you can tell that they are hiding something by the way they are acting whether it be stiff or nervous or what not. I mean especially when it has to do with rejection or something of the sort. I mean people say that they don't want to whatever because they don't want to hurt you but I mean do they not know that they are hurting you as they speak? I mean I know I know they think that it might be worse later on or if whatever happens but still. I mean you can't go through life without taking risks. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that it should be all about that but really, if risks are not taken then you don't get to experience some of the greatest things in life. But no people refuse to take the risks or even tell you that they don't want to take it and ugh.... to put it bluntly people have no self-assurance or courage. Sometimes yes things might hurt but they need to be said rather than just ignored. I mean things happen and sometimes you might wish that they didn't but you can't deny that they did. Because OBVIOUSLY they did and did so for a reason that you or anyone involved might not know. The thing is people might have something to say like 'I like you' or 'I don't like you like that sorry' or what not and to ever say it because it can cause pain, but hear this people...'LIFE IS PAIN'. I mean I know not all of the time but that's what happened when we turned our back on God. We brought pain and suffering into the world by committing sin. I mean it's crappy but it's our fault. You can't escape the pain in life. It's going to happen. You will cause pain and experience it. It is inevitable. DEAL WITH IT! Get over the fact that you might have to hurt someone. Say what needs to be said and get it over with. Don't hide behind the fact you might hurt them...Ya know what? WAAAHHH...Get over it and just say it all ready. It just makes it all worse when you (and please excuse my bluntness) don't have the balls to say what needs to be said. I'm sick of people not having the guts to do what obviously needs to be done. Sometimes you have to be blunt and not sugarcoat things. Stop it! Stop being all nice and trying to make a putdown sound like a compliment. It's not and never will be. So don't try to make it seem as such.

I'm through for now because now I'm just kind of angry....might be back later if not tomorrow

You are Sir Bedevere! Wise and creative, you are
able to counsel others as well as come up with
some really ingenious plans of attack...sort
of.


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Hey everyone. I'm back after awhile of lesser or even none blogging...I know probably not real terms but whatever. I have been really busy and if not that who knows what the deal was. Life is going along quite well I should say. I want to rant about something but I'll leave that for later. I have two more exams till the break and that makes me happy. I don't even have to go to school tomorrow. That is pretty sweet in my opinion. Friday I take the last two and then one more semester until I am out of high school forever. That is so weird to say but hey it works for me. Work is going well as well as most relationships and just life in general so I can't complain. I'm going to head out for now though and maybe have some more for you guys later. Happy Holidays!