Well....ok updating, me, hmm anyways....

So I had another date with the most gorgeous girl in the world yesterday. Of coarse I'm talking about my manda. We had so much fun as we always do. We first went over to red robin and had lunch and that was a lot of fun. One of the guys that worked there hit on her. We then went back to her house and after showers and fixing hair we both kinda just randomly fell asleep. Good nap though I must say. We then got up and went and watched tv and stuff and got all pretty. We hit up the Republican/Democrat thanksgiving dinner thing, which was pretty cool. Fun people there like Hunter. He's adorable. Next on to none other but my alan's bball game in which they should have won because the other team was playing dirty basketball and the refs were so bias. Not that I'm bitter or anything though. We then chilled with Kelly and Casey who are awesome. We had a lot of fun just hangin out and being crazy. Great day overall w/o a doubt.

I really want some like veggies right now. I know i'm weird i only say what i think. I'm goin to end this thing and go get some. G'day!

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this is quit scary if you ask me....but def not true





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this is more liek me or at least i think so..


....yes i was bored and half asleep so i kinda went overboard on the lil quiz things but take if you get bored and let me know what you came up with

BROWN You are usually very straight-forward. You have a passive personality and enjoy nurturing those around you. You are very grounded and prefer to keep things simple and honest. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

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Wow! so even though I haven't truely been living it, I love college life! I so hope I can get into Baylor because already this weekend has been awesome and I love the place. It is just awesome. I've came to visit with Dustin ans just to hang out and whatnot. Well yes, we went to a late movie last night after some amazing pizza which we got from pap johns. I usualy don't like it but it was greatness. We went to the game today and chilled there for a while and then on to the Christian bookstore called Compass which was awesome. it was huge and I got a new cd by mae. They are awesome as well. We went from there to olive Garden and ate what could be quite possibly the greatest food ever and then to the Richland mall. It was cool I got new pants and a shirt. I know that won't happen a lot in college but it was nice. We continued on to Coldstone which might I say was just incredable. I had the best banana ice cream ever with strawberries mixed in. I just have to stop fot a moment to wipe off the drool....Ok I'm back that is much better. Now we are back at the appartment for Chuck to get a bit of a nap in and then who knows what. This weekend isn't over and I'm having a blast hanging out with my brother and just being a 'college student' for the weekend.

In other news, Chris and Wemdy came in this week and that was pretty cool to see them again. I miss them and all but God has a plan and reason for all of this so no need to dwell on it. They stayed from monday to wednesday and then went back to their new home. They came to sell their house. It was just cool being able to remember the times together and for him to speak again at Soul Food.

I had one of the most amazing conversations yesterday with a dear friend. (I love oyu Megan!!) But yes, we talked for at least an hour or so. It was awesome and we were really connectiong in a way I never have before except with one person but well let's just not go there. No, it felt good to be able to help her and indirectly help myself by just talking everything out. I am so blessed by the amazing friends I have.

Thanksgiving is coming up and Chuck is coming home for the holiday as well as my grandmother. It will be differant because she normally doesn't come down(for holidays) but it'll be cool. I had a Thanksgiving feast at the elementry school yesterday and it was really good. I enjoyed it.

That is pretty much all I have for now. Oh for Christmas I want the following:
Crossfade cd
jewlery
my two front teeth

Gidt card from the following:
Victoria Secret
American Eagle
Aeropostale
Sarbucks
Tia's
Walmart

Well that is just FYI...lol just kidding but I shall leave you with a great song....


All You need is love
Love is just a game
I was made for lovin you baby, You were made for lovin me
The only way of livin me baby is to pay a lovely fee
Just one night give me just one night
There's no way cuz you can't pay
In the name of love, One night in the name of love
You crazy fool, I won't give into you
Don't leave me this way, I can't survive without your sweet love Oh baby don't leave me this way
You'd think that people would had enough of silly love songs
I look around me and I see it isn't so Oh no
Some people wana fill the world with silly love songs
And what'swrong with that, I'd like to know, cuz here I go again, Love lifts us up where we belong, where eagles fly on a mountain high
Love makes us act like we are fools, throw our lives away for one happy day
We could be heros, just for one day
You, you will be mean
No, I won't
And I, I'll drink all the time
We should be lovers
We can't do that
We should be lovers, and that's a fact
Though nothing would keep us together
We could still time just for one day
We could be heros forever and ever
We could be heros forever and ever
We could be heros, just because I will always love you
I can't help lovin...how wonderful life is
Now you're in love!

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Well I know it has been awhile, but I have been so busy it's crazy. Senior year is kickig my butt when it comes to how much I am doing. I have decided that I am dropping out of Ac-Dec because it is demanding time that I don't have to give. I am not proud of it but yes. I have to have time to sleep, eat, breathe, you know the usual.

For other news, I got my proofs back for my senior pictures and I love them. It is something new for me and I love it. They are awesome and I can't wait till I can give wallets to people. I hope they love them as much as I do.

Let's see what else is there? Well Fall Fastbreak was great. I will miss that so much next year. Just a quick break from society and all of it's temptations and dramas. I thought a lot while I was there about college and some of my friends and the impact I am leaving on them. I will miss them more than words can express and a few in particular but that is life right? I will miss randomly showing up at Alan's house and talking to him while I play with Sherman. Or showing up at Amanda's and almost being tackled by her giving me a huge hug. Or anything like that. I am going to miss jsut being able to say 'I need you' and they are right there for me to cry on their shoulder if need be. I know that I will make new friends and that life is still going to be great and everything, but I know that I will miss some people here so much it might even put a haze over the fun I can have in college. I know I will miss coming home to my parents after a long day and just hanging out with them while watching tv, as my dad grimmaces and pops my toes. I will miss going to school t Naaman, no matter how strange that might make me sound. I will miss going to high school football games(the last of which was this past friday). I know I need to not worry about it but my best friend in the entire world is here. I don't want to leave. He has taken me through so much and no matter what I know he is there whther we are having problems between us or not. We have known each other for so long we can finish each others sentances and everything and the feeling I get when I'm around him is identical to none other. Not only him but my gorgeous Amanda is here and with her I have more fun than I ever have and that's all in one night. We get into trouble and still make fun out of it. She makes me laugh so hard my eyes are watering and it feels like I just did a hundred sit-ups. All my other friends are here too. I mean I know a lot of them will be going of to college as well but few if any to where I am. I just will miss this life. I say 'this life' because I know that once I leave it will never be the same. I will not have the same feeling around Alan. It will not be the same to get into trouble with Amanda. I guess I just want to say that I want to live this life to the fullest while I'm here. I love you guys.

MOre to come later but for now I am off to chill with Carrie. Peace all.

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seaweeed is cool seaweed is fun....ok not really but it's from finding nemo an insanely great movie. I haven't blogged in a bit cuz well I haven't exactly felt up to the task. Just haven't felt like writting if i was even home.
I noticed tho that no1 ever comments anymore...whats up wit that? not cool very not cool. Well i'm out...comment if ya wana know wuts goin on in my life & i'll tell ya but i have no clue wut 2 say rite now....

Well I have some things to get off my chest and then I will let you wonderful people know how my life has been going.
This is my rant for today:
So I have noticed this before but not the extent that I saw and was pushed to as of late. The society of today's world has gone to waste in my opinion. The morals of so many have been compromised for the pleasure of the moment. I have been tempted to do things an have heard things from people and friends much less that just saddens me to no end because of how this life they are living will hurt them terribly in the end. They just don't understand. They say 'I just want to have fun.' or 'I'm living life and enjoying myself.' Where do they get this idea that actions have no consequences?? I was recently informed that an old friend of mine will be a father in the months to come. How sad is that? The society is delusional and misinformed and totally off base. Life is not about having fun or enjoying yourself. Everything is not just fun and games. I know I might sound like I'm trying to be holier than thou but I not trying. I am just getting things off my mind that have been bothering me. I want to share this idea with people and let them know that there is more to life than the present. There is great and abundant blessings sent from God. I have been personally blessed by God with my family, friends, job, and home. All of that for what? For only trying to exist in Him instead of for myself. I know I'm definitely not perfect by any means but yet God still decides to bless me. I just wish others could see the down sides of living for the moment. It just ends up hurting you in the end. If for example, one is having sex with the excuse that they are just having fun. Well what if the girl gets pregnant? Or one or both of the two people contract an STD? There are so many things to look at. Things like drugs are without saying not a good idea. I mean all it is doing is hurting your body because you think that you cannot handle the stress or because you just like that hazy feeling. It isn't worth it. All of this to say that I'm just sad that the world has come to what it has. It is something that was coming and no one was stopping it and it still will not quit. Society just needs to see Jesus but refuse to give up their 'fun'.

Well I was going to tell about life right now but after all of that I don't think I can.

Well Waco was awesome & i love chillin wit my bro. His g/f is really sweet too. She iz cute too. We chilled and stuff. I love my brother's bed. I took a nap on it today after mother made all of us (Andrew, Jeff, Dustin, Laura, her and me. I always sleep better on his bed. But noo he just had to take it with him when he moved to his apartment. Oh well, I have a queen bed that he left here. It isn't as comfortable but it is nice cuz it's all big & stuff.

Anywayz, I'm out I just took a bath and spirit week & i prob wont update till fri or sumthin cuz this week uz crazy...But who knowz well see...

So...It has been a few days but I have been busy and well having fun so poo on you if you think I should have updated by now. Ok not really but anywayz...

So I am going to homecoming wit Jason a week from today. I can't wait. I kind of wanted him to ask me from the beginning but well things happen for a reason. I don't know what that reason is yet, but I'm sure it is worth it. He is so adorable. He is so polite and sweet too. He always has the best manners and is so chivalrous. It makes me feel so special when I'm around him. I don't like him, don't get me wrong but he is just an awesome guy. If he was a Christian he would be insanely close to the guy I want to marry but he is not. Please pray for me as I have been and will be trying to witness to him, as he is Mormon.

Other news, I love my bedrug! I was hanging out in a parking lot last night after going to eat with Serena and Joseph. I miss him. He's my buddy. We just chilled and looked at airplanes. I would say stars but we could only see one due to the lights of the parking lot. The bedrug is very comfortable though. Thank you Daddy & Mother!!!

Let's see what else do I have for you, Oh I am thinking of cutting my hair after homecoming (it needs to be long enough for an updo). Let me know if you think it will look ok. I want to cut it to how short it was freshman year. I'm not quite sure about it.

Oh the Hawk Nelson concert is getting closer! YAY! I can't wait. I love them. It is a great group and the song "Every Little Thing" is an awesome song. The concert is just going to rock. I shall let you lovely people know how insanely sweet it was.

MY mavericks are coming back! I can't wait for the first game. It starts during church so I won't be able to see it right then sadly but you bet I'm am going to TIVO it and as soon as I get home...MAVERICKS!!! I will be decked out in my Mav gear and ready to rock. It is still very hard to cope with the fact that my dearest Nash has left the Mavs and went to Phoenix, but I without a doubt will be at the game when he comes to town. I will be wearing my homemade shirt (well not really but I had it made) that will support him in all he does. He will always be my Nash. Najera also left which makes me sad but not nearly as much as Nash. He went to Golden State and I will be at those games as well. He is my teddy bear. He has a great voice with the accent and all.

Well I believe that is it for now. Hope ya'll are doing well...G'day.

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Well it indeed has been awhile but I've been busy and if not that sleeping. I have had a lot going on lately, both mentally and by the calendar. It has been crazy and I think that could be the reason I didn't wake up till 4:30 today. I know it is crazy but it happened.

I'm still tired is the strange thing and plus I don't feel well, for what reason I also do not know. So how are things with my beautiful readers? I hope you are doing well. I am pretty good. I have been happy because I am pretty sure that I will have all A's on my report card. It's a first but it is awesome. I am so proud of myself. It makes me so proud.

Oh and get this, my awesome parents got me a bed cover for my grades. I mean, I was happy anyways about getting the grades but then just out of nowhere I get a bed cover to cover up all the scratches on my truck bed. It is an awesome cover. It is called a bed rug and it like is conformed to the ridges in the bed and so it isn't all hard and it's like a big cushion for it. It is so sweet. I can lay in it and not have to complain about the stupid metal ridge things hurting. Thanks daddy & mother!

Um let's see what else is new. Well I am going to have to tell someone something that I am not quite looking forward to but I have to. Please pray for me in doing that.

Umm, I think that is it for now but I'm hoping that I can update more often.

Well it has been awhile but I've been crazy busy cept yest & 2day but that consisted of sleep. I have been workin and goin 2 tutorials to keep up get this....All A's!!! How exciting? VERY! It has never happened to me before and I'm working hard to do it. I love life, it is going great. I have a few small issues of which I won't go into detail but if you would pray for me I would really appreciate it.
I went to the game Friday. It was awesome until the clock had no more time on it and the refs called some bogus sumthin or another and the other team got another second & somehow won. We were cheated. Not cool but what can you do besides yell at the refs for favoring the other team. Which of coarse we did that night because it was so true. Let's see what else is going on. Umm I joined AcDec.
OH! I got a new dress. I don't know when I'm going to wear it though. One of the dances duh but which one? So many choices.

Well I'm out...

not much to say rite now....life's great, got a hc date, BU (Baylor for all of you that are not cool) wuz amazing but exhausting, & i'm kinda sick rite now so i'm out...

AWWW!!! her brother, Jadon. He's the most adorable lil boy ever....even though i might be a lil bias but o well 

isn't she adorable? i miss her so much. I talked to melanie yest. (her mother, my cousin) and she sed that school wuz goin well 4 her which makes me happy. I hope to go see them soon. And good news! She might b comin down 4 my graduation!!! HOw exciting iz that? Two bonuses in one! That thrills me to no end. 

Well this weekend has been awesome so far and hopefully it will just get better. On Friday I had a lot of fun at the game with Ck and hoez and Carrie. OH! And I saw an old friend I haven't talked to in awhile. Josh Kessell! HE is adorable and it was great to see him again. Well after that Ck and I went and hung out at denny's....lol don't ask. Then we went and remembered our childhood by going to a playground. I love those things to no end. They take me back and make me happy. It is awesome going to a playground and remembering all the times that you had in elementary school. Needless to say I had a great time.
Well Sat., I went and chilled with my Manda! at tias. We had so much fun! Daniel was working(my friend I met through my mother.) and we met his friend while we were there. He was really cool. I mean, granted Daniel is awesome so why wouldn't Chris be but ya. We sat and talked and got to know each other. Chris and I talked about how I am going into the ministry and he was really encouraging me in that. It made me happy. Well Manda ended up spending the night and of coarse that was great. I always have such a great time with her. We chased the sunset, we make friends with just about everyone, and we just always have a blast. *Muah* I love you!!!
Well Sunday was, of coarse, church and then after Sunday School I went home and took a nap because of a pesky migraine. Great nap though! After that a few people called and that was cool and I talked to Casey as well. We ended up going to chill later on and we went and saw Bourne Supremacy. It was decent. It was the second time I watched it so yea. I was totally lost the first time and the second time as only a bit better. I understood some of it this time and it wasn't too bad. It was fun though hanging out with him and getting to know him better. He is really easy to talk to. We talked throughout the whole movie almost, lol ok not really but afterwards when we were hanging out at Red Robin we just talked and talked. Great stuff.
Today I was able to sleep in and it felt so good. I talked to Manda once again and I think we might have a hoedown later on. lol Ok not really but I want to have a few people over for a pool partay. It should be cool.
Well I shall be back later but if not.....I love you guys and thanks for making life grand!

I was just looking at my pictures on my computer and saw this one. I miss her so much. She is so adorable and I don't get to see her enough. It is the same with her brother, but I son't have a picture of him on here. I hope to go see them sometime soon thoug. The sooner the better. I love you Jenessa and Jadon! 

so life is going great & I have none other than God to thank for that.

school is goin awesome and i'm loving my classes except for econ which is like wow lame but i gotta pass so....well other than that my job is amazing i am loving it like ya!! it just rocks! uhh wut else.....dun got much else rite now...more l8r....luv yall

I am back! Oh I know you are so excited to hear from me again. I am just that exciting.

So about my week. I had a great week. Insanely full, but oh so good. I love my new job. It is so much fun to take care of kids. I love them so much and my boss is so sweet. She is really cool. I love the kids, we only had a few issues this week but you know how the whole 'gotta test the new girl' thing is. It's all good now though.

School is going great and I have good classes and friends in said classes. It also seems this year that I am getting closer to all of my friends, I really think that it is a blessing from God. Not that I deserve it but it is not like I deserve to live either. He just gives us great things because of His intense love for us. Ain't it grand??

I have been busy with other things to this week. I went and saw my adorable Johnny. He and his band played at Garland High School yesterday night at Battle of the Bands. He was so good. I was amazed. He had great stage presance and sang great as well. I also saw Alyssa there even though I didn't know she would be performing. She was as always great. They both proved to me how much talent they have. Not that they needed to.

Oh I am, as ogf now, at my lovely Amanda Lark's house and we are having tons of fun as we alwyas do. She is my favorite, in the words of J.D. We always have so much fun. Like the time at six flags when we...

Well I am going to go for the night and hang out with her some more. I love you all. *Muah*

well it is the end of the week and i am exhausted but great....

i'm at my mandas eatin sum chinese & havin sum fun....post more l8r......

Wow this week has been crazy yet awesome. Some days were better than other and some blew some out of the water. I had a great weekend although I'm dead from it all now. I shall explain...

First of all I had a good day Friday and then went from school to Chikfila to drop off shibby (serena). Then I went to a what I have been calling job interview. I got it!!! Sorry I'm a bit excited about it. It is the best job ever. I will be taking care of two of the most adorable kids ever for about 2 and a half hours a day. You want to know how much? Ten bucks an hr plus gas money to take the little girl to dance classes. Then I don't even work on Fridays. It should be great.

We had the welcome to the youth group retreat Friday night for all the incoming 7th graders and i;m what we call a big sister so i went. I met my little sister, Courtney Samson, who is lemme tell ya awesome. We had a lot of fun which included a flour fight which cool and just yea. We stayed up till 530 and then woke up at 10. Craziness i tell you craziness!

Then sat. night i was supposed to go to hang out with someone but they never called so I chilled with Shibby. She ended up spending the night and we went to church for the promotion sunday thing. I am in my daddy's ss class now. Then lunch at spring creek which was awesome & then home for a min. just to leave again to go to the mall where I got a new hoodie. It's green! :) Then church and SNAC afterwards which was cool. I'm soo tired now but I think it was worth it.

I will leave you with this though. NEVER share a full size bed with two other people.....BIG mistake!

small pst for now.....school is goin great so far....Seniors!!!

School starts tomarrow. I'm kind of excited. I must be going though so I can get enough sleep. I am getting up at 4:30 after all. I love going to church! :) If you want to know what the stink I am talking about ask. G'nite all & G'luck with school. 05!!!

I can't sleep and I decided to make a post randomly. I don't know what it will be about but I have a lot going through my head at the moment I don't know if I could even type it all out before it jumps right back out.

My mind has been racing lately and not about anything in particular but just everything in general. I am kind of in awe of it. I just keep thinking about everything from school starting to friendships to who knows what else. I just will be sitting there and doing generally nothing and my mind will start thinking and probing the deepest thoughts of my mind. Like...

"Will I ever truly make the difference I pray to?"

or

"How can I be a senior in high school already, I'm not what it takes."

or

"Why is it that it seems that when I finally make a real connection with someone
[I don't want to say their name.], they check out of my life."

I just, I don't know if it is just the mood I am in right now, being tired or what but I just feel so out there. I feel as if I can't concentrate. And if I do, it is about something that if I keep thinking about it that it can in some way depress me. I do not know what is going on or what to think. I'm lost in my own head no matter how crazy that sounds. I feel as if I am right now. Crazy that is.

I hope I'm not scaring anyone who might be reading this but I do not try to hide myself. I tell it like I feel it. Whoever is happening to read this just pray for me because this is maybe the second or third night this has happened and it gets worse every night and I just pray that I can move on so that I can sleep soundly in preparation for school and what not.

It could just be a teenager thing but I don't know. I do know though that I have my senior year of high school coming up and to be truly honest I am scared. People, from what I know, go into their senior year with all this confidence in what they are going to do or who they are or what have you and I am over here and I just want to do God's will for my life and I don't know what that is. I am one of those people that likes to know where they are going, but I have no clue. I know I just need to keep Him first and that He will always be there for me, but I just know that there are things that I will be going back to and it is going to be some of the hardest times in my life because of all the things I have done in the past and what I will be tempted with. I have changed over the summer and by no means want to go back to where I was. It terrifies me just to think that I could end up there again. I don't want to even think about it. I just pray just God will give me the strength I need to make it through and to hear what He wants me to do when it comes to college and my future.

I ask of you, my friends, that you pray for me and others who might be going through these things:

• Life and its temptations might bring that it will not keep us down.
• Those who are in doubt of what their future might be when it comes to planning college.
• Those who will be going back to school changed and new and that they will be strong in the Lord our God.
• And lastly, that all who know Him shine His light that all my see His glory.

These are my thoughts and prayers. My dreams are that you may take them and change the world with what you may do with them. I am not my own. I am God's, and He has spoken through me.

I was informed lately by the lovely Megan Campbell that I have lied to you, my devoted readers. LOL ok yes, I did say something that I didn't quite keep to but I am going to try to fix that right now and for the next few days. I said in one of my past posts that I was going to say something to all of my friends, a long task I know but it is worth it in my eyes. First though I must say yet another thing about my gorgeous Manda...
Manda, yesterday was amazing! Thank you so much for going with me. I had so much fun & it was one of the best days of my summer. You and me are two crazy chiks and it is even worse when we are together. You have the greatest attitude and I love being around you. I don't think I have laughed that much in a long time. We were all over the place and we made it count. We accomplished our goal. lol No matter how strange we were acting. We talked to our adorable Joseph and you met Daniel and saw how dramatic and great he is. I love that we can just be hanging out in a parking lot and have fun. I don't know what it is about the time that we spend but it just gets better and better. Thanks for everything yesterday and I will pay you back the ten bucks. Love you!
Now for Marta, wow what a long list of things I could say. A lot of the things that I could mention for her are our insiders. Those will live on forever and will always make me laugh. We just act stupid most of the time and have a great time doing it. There are times though when we get really serious and the conversations are deep and meaningful. Those times I truly know that I am blessed with her friendship. I love the things we talk about and how we can talk about almost anything and have debates and yet still go away not hating each other for having totally different opinions. Her friendship has meant a lot to me over the years through insight she has, to the fun she brings, or the spiritual guidance she gives to me. She is a amazing person and I'm so happy that she has 'perfect lil David' to be there for her and love her. He makes her feel like she is worth what she really is unlike so many people cannot do. I love you Marta and thank you for everything.
Next going to have to be the greatest guy ever...None other than the only Brian Dean. He is the just wow. He has always sat and listened to all my spills about my life and how much of a drama queen I am. He always helps me out and encourages me. Every time I see him I can't help but smile because he is just that awesome of a person. He is loved by everyone and I appreciate his friendship more than I can say. He encourages me when I am down and makes me laugh when I feel like there's nothing to be happy about. He gives me hope that life will be ok. I have known him since forever and a year ago and thank God for every moment I have. Thank you for just being there Brian and I just hope that somehow someday I can repay you for all you have done.
Amy! My gorgeous friend that I love so much. Aww what can I say about you. You make me laugh so hard that I am in pain. I have so much fun with you and you make me forget all my problems and worries. We just have fun and I could never thank you enough for that. You have an amazing joy and gift of just loving and encouraging people and I just hope that by spending time with you that you can rub off on me and I can be as you are. You inspire me to look at the positive side and just to keep praying and everything will be great. You helped bring me out of things that I shouldn't have been into in the first place. I can't thank you enough and Love you with all my heart.
That is all for today, but I shall be back.

I've been meaning to put this on here for awhile but just now found the time/will to actually do it. It is a list that I put together with the help of a few friends on some of things that just make you have what some people might call the warm fuzzies......fyi not in any order

1. (if you are a girl) shaving your legs
2. Cleaning your ears
3. Drinking coffee
4. Getting an extra chicken nugget
5. (if you are a girl) getting new underwear
6. Seeing your best friend
7. Falling asleep by the fire
8. Cuddling with your favorite blanket..even better if it's with your best guy/chik friend
9. Good hair days
10. Driving with the windows down and radio up
11. (if you are a girl) putting on lipgloss
12. Sleeping on clean sheets
13. Burning incense
14. Wearing your favorite outfit
15. Remembering a friend by their smell (as in cologne or perfume)

well let me know wut makes u just feel good...just leave a comment

Yes I'm back and in one day you should be proud...Well i just was watching CMT (country music television for some of you) and i realized something and really started thinking about it. I just hope it inspires you as much it did me.
Well ok, I know all of you have seen at least one music video in your lifetime and if not don't feel bad you aren't missing much. Anyways I was watching a video and saw how much passion the man sang with and just sat and thought and wished that when I sang to my Heavenly Father that I had all the more passion. I mean, He is worth it is He not? It just made me fell like we don't give God the credit we should. And I've realized this before, but this time it was different. I know that the 'Baptist' way of things is that you stand when the song says or sit or whatever. But do you kneel on your knees when the song says? Do you really cry out when it says? I only ask this to you because when I asked myself I was hit by it. I just know that I don't and I wish I did. If only I had the guts to dance when I felt it, or kneel, or cry out even. I just saw the passion in the man singing about things not of God and as Christians we have all the more reason to have passion in everything we do. That includes during worship. I just challenge you as I did myself to not just worship as everyone does because that's what is expected. But I heard a great comment by the assistant dean at Super Summer that I was reminded of..."God does not go by tradition, we do." And in saying that He explained to us that God doesn't care if you go by tradition. He would love it if you danced and raised your hands and cried out to Him. I'm not saying you have to but don't feel as if you have to conform. This is what being the salt of the earth is all about. It is so that we can stand out and separate ourselves from others. Even though it might be from other Christians, it is still setting an example for others to follow and just because you step out of your comfort zone to worship Him as you always have wanted, might just mean that someone will be inspired by you & therefore you have been used by God to teach someone something truly meaningful.

That is my spill for today. I hope it does as much for you as it did for me.

hey everyone, I have a question/rant to share with ya'll for today. Ok, I know sarcasm is big and popular right now but I mean even though I do it I never really thought I actually hurt anyone by it. I never really thought about it until today when someone really close to me said something that hit me really hard. I have been trying to not be so sarcastic and make fun of people as of late but I still do and to those I have I'm truly sorry. I love you and never meant to hurt you. I just never really thougth about it. Well I'm out I just had to get that out for now. God bless all!

Wow, what a day! Guess what I finally got.....a NASH JERSEY!!! Yes it is unbelievable but it happened. I love it soo much. And yes even though he has moved to Phoenix with out me I'm ok.....I will survive As long as I know how to loveI know I'll be alive. I've got all my life to live. I've got all my love to give. I will survive. I will survive....I'm done with the random song and dance for the moment. But yes Nash will continue to be my Nashy and my favorite bball player.
 
   On a more serious note, I got myself a devotional book and I'm excited to say that I used it for the first time today and it was awesome. Before I just tried reading the Bible and it is awesome but I just need something to help me out ya know? Well I love it and am hopefully going to be showing God more and more each day through spending time with Him in my quiet times. He is just incredable isn't He? I think so.
 
    Well I'm off to church and then maybe out or something. Love you guys and God bless!

i love cows! they r the coolest! 

Wow, I can't explain the feeling I have right now. It is just amazing. I know I keep using  those words lately, but I have good reason to especially when talking of Super Summer.
 
       Well ok....Brownwood! It was great! I had so much fun and loved to see Anna, Taylor, Stephen again. I spent all day Sunday with Anna & it was awesome. We went to the so called mall, then to a place called Hastings which was pretty sweet, and then to Taco Bell and had a long deep talk. I thoroughly enjoyed every minute I was in Brownwood. Well I have one complaint but it is my fault. The bed was hard and I froze my butt off in the hotel room. I can't complain though because everything else made up for it. I went by and saw Stephen right before I left with my mother who so graciously went with me. He is an amazing person and I am so happy God gave us the chance to meet. Anna's family was great. They are incredibly sweet and they showed me what a small town is all about and made me love the experience all the more. About my mother and I, we had fun on the way and way back just hanging out. We went by random places on the way home today and it was great. We are both exhausted from all of it though.
 
      My life has been truly blessed and I never took the time to realize it. I have had a great youth minister and it is a shame that it has taken me this long to figure it out. He is a man of God that had truly touched many lives and I am so thankful that I got a chance to be a part of the youth group while He lead it. I wish I could say more but I have so much going through my head right now and am so tired that just ugh ya know? But to wrap this thing up. Chris Trent, we certainly have had our times where we did not agree in the slightest bit, but I have learned after being touched by God that over the years you have truly made an impact on me and I am ever so grateful to you for it. I love you and wish I would have realized earlier what you have done in my life.
 
     I'm out for today. It's been a long one and I need some sleep. G'night all!

hey every1! how ya'll doin? i'm great...i just love kids. I had to get that out. They are so adorable and I'm loving teaching them in vbs this week. I can't wait to go to Brownwood. It is going to be nice to see some of my camp people again. I miss them so much. I miss my super summer peoples too. The two guys that are near me are busy a lot. Well aaron has been outa town on mission trip but stephen is an awesome friend. God knows what he's doing when He puts people into family groups and things. God is soo good.
 
    Well that's about all I have to say for today. I love you guys.

I'm not getting along with blogger rite now because it just erased like a ton of writing but I'm ok.
 
   In short what I said was I had an amazing time at super summer. I met like four guys I wish I could marry them all because they are all what I want my husband to be like. I dedicated my life to full time Christian ministry. I learned so much. I can't wait to make a difference in any way I can. I just hope that you all can experience what I am. It is indescribable.
 
  Last but certainly not least I want to share my new life verse with you. I read it in my quiet time this morning. It is actually two verses but ya..... 1 Corinthians 10:31-32 ......read those and let me know what you think.

aw my camp groupies, gotta love 'em, i sure do 

NNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! my Nash is gone from the mavericks! How could this happen? This is so not cool he was my favorite player. His beautiful long brown hair, his skill, awe why Nash? Just cuz they offer you 15 million more why? what about the fans that love you in Dallas? what about them? Do you not care? Do they not matter? They love you. i love you. you let us down. You traded us for phoenix? Who cares about them? Not us....Well except for the fact that you are now there. Even though you left me i'll still support you. i don't know who else will but i will. You are my Nash and even though you are a trader i'll be there to cheer you on.

So, life is moving along quite well must I say. I'm loving the fact that Alan & I are getting close again, & Kaiser and I are becoming better friends. Our little group is just awesome and it is always fun with them.
I am spending a lot more time with Amanda which I always love because she is one of my very best friends and nobody could ever replace her for anything. She inspires me sometimes to do things I normally would never do. She gives me hope in the times that I am lacking in faith. The light that she brings to my life makes me a better person for knowing her. I can't believe God has blessed me with a person like her. She is a one of a kind. I love you Amanda!!!
Well if I'm going to go off on 1 of my best friends, I must continue with the others because I wouldn't want to leave anyone out.
Alan, what is there to say about him. Well, so much in fact that I could go on for hours as well as I could have with Amanda but more so because he has always been my best guy friend in the world. Nothing could ever change how I feel about him and he is an incredible person. He is the only one that can truly make me happy even though I am in the worst mood. He is there for me even when we haven't exactly been close lately. He can always make me laugh. He knows what to say and when to say it. He is also an amazing blessing in my life. I love you Alan!!!
Christina, where do I start? She has been there with me since first grade and if we would have met before then I bet it would be longer. She has stuck with me through everything and many a time gone through the same thing at the same time. We have shared many a good time and bad. We have so many inside jokes that we can't even remember them all. We have our places where we only go with just us. We have our 'OCD' moments, and also our looking back moments. She has had an incredible impact on my life and has at times saved me from making huge mistakes. For all of this I love her and always will.

For now I am going to put this on hold because my back is hurting but I will continue at some time tomorrow. If I haven't said something to you yet just wait, I will. I just want everyone to know why I am doing this though. I love my friends and at no point in time do I truly tell them what I feel. I would never want something to happen and whoever not know. I love everyone that I know, but some of the people in my life, they truly are priceless.

Wow, that is about the only word I can use to describe my week at camp. It was just incredible and I don't really know how to describe it except that I met some amazing people that I can only pray that I can manage to keep in touch with. The pastor was great, my family group was greater than words, and God really spoke to me through it all. He truly showed me service through my family group leader Stephen and that showed me what I really need to be like. I can only pray that God will use me for him as he did Stephen. I even enjoyed rec. This year which probably surprises most of you. It was just a great week. I really hope we go back next year.

Well not much else to report but I am now single and might I add loving it. I am getting to get closer to Alan again which makes me happy. He's a great guy & I love him.

I'm out for the night though because camp was great but I'm tired now.

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY!!! to all you dads out there hope it's a great one for ya....yall guys are great and your children are truely touched by what you do.

So it's been awhile and a lot has happened and well one of those things is that me & rickey are ova. I won't go into details & all that because it's not that important but ya. It really ended today but kinda yesterday.
Anywayz, I leave for youth camp monday and can't wait. It should be awesome and I get to room with my manda so that iz going to be sweet. Well mission trip was great I had my moments but everyone does.
I'm loving life and plan on hanging out with more of my friends now that I'm a single woman. OK now whered I put the now serving sign for all the men waiting for me?...hmm lol yea right!
Well I'm off 2 bed 4 now but more to come so don't miss out. Luv yall

Wow, this weekend was kinda weird. i don't know why but it has been. It is over now but still. It was a mixture of things like Adri spending the night, her and Dana swimmin with me, gettin a sunburn on my butt (which i don't know how it happened because make no mistake i was wearing a swimsuit), and my dad's bday. A lot going on that's for sure.

Man 2 more days. The sucky part about that though is two days later i leave for mission trip and ya. I mean i get to spend time with all my church people but not with my rickey whom i miss seeing. I can't even talk to him really now. I just miss him. He's my lil rickey and yet he's...ugh i won't bore you with the details of my life.

I'm out for now and i might post another time before i leave but who knows. Gnight all

Wow...What a day! Craziness I tell you craziness!

After a day like this I just don't feel like doing much. I just want to go home and watch a sad movie or something ya know? I don't want to talk about it because I've already done enough of that but ya. Nah I also want to just like go home & lay out or something, not because it would help me get a tan because well yea right! But ya it's just a good feeling. I just want to chill by myself but whatever.

Schools out, senior...whoop de doo...Yes I'm not all that excited but I think it is just the whole day getting to me. Whatever though I'll stop complaining and blabbing and let ya'll go...

Well, I'm here at the ol' office again. I'm going to the dentist in a few but other than that I'm bored and I thought I'd blog before I left.

So one more exam and I'm a senior in high school. Scary rite? I know. It really is. Me of all people being a leader in the school. Granted it is only because of the whole being older thing but still. It means that younger people might look up to me as an example. Not because I'm tall or anything but Because I'm a senior. I never knew what the allure was to being a senior although as most do, I dreamed of the days that I would become one. Now that I am so close it doesn't really seem all as great as I once dreamed. Maybe I just know better than to think it is some big thing anymore or maybe I just haven't realized I don't know. It is a scary thought in a way though. Just think all you juniors, almost seniors, in a year from now we will be getting ready to move out of our home that we've lived in for so long and out into the world to try to accomplish great things. I don't know if I'm ready for the whole world ya know? I mean don't get me wrong I'm excited but still.

Summer is going to be busy I think. I already have things planned out for a lot of it. I already have a party thing this coming friday at my house. I got stuff with my Rickey on sat. Next week I'm not quite sure what all is going on. I know it's going to be somewhat busy though. Craziness I know.

Well I'm out for now. Going to the dentist and then home to wait for dad to head to go swimsuit shopping. G'day all!

i've been thinking a lot lately about my lil 2nd cousin. I miss her alot. I'm hoping to get to go visit her, her brother, and her mother which is my fav. cousin in the world. She is just the best. No, but this is a picture of me with Jenessa around the end of December last year. I can't wait to see her again. She's the cutest. Also another plus, she gives me a workout lol. :) 

i had a good nite although it woulda been better if i got to talk to my rickey but thats my fault. But ya, i went to see Shrek 2 which was funny and before that i went and tried on like 50 swimsuits &get this get to go tom & try on some more & even better...i get to get a top that shows my stomach!!! You know how much easier that makes it to find one i like? like wow!?! & i found the cutest one but daddy & me gotta agree on one ya know? I'll be sure to update yall tom. though after i get it. Whatever it is it'll be better than any other one I've ever had. anywayz....I'm gone for the nite...But here's something you might wana try...The grilled chicken wrap from sonic actually really good...ya I'm out

Ah, yes i can now post pics on here & u better believe I'll b doin it & that means posting more. yay rite? i think so...

so life's going along and exams are going on and all and I'm home not taking them. ok, well i do have to take two. alg 2 because i need the exam to pass for the semester. The other i just have to take because i don't have a fourth exemption. Granted I'm only supposed to get 3 but it would be nice ya know? But ya so I'm goin to take the tech exam because it's not like it'll b much and then also my rickey will be in there as well as chester, stephen, and haylea. It shouldn't be too bad.

i wore a shirt today and get this...i liked how it looked. Surprise rite? Well it made my eyes look really sweet. so ya.

oh. i wana go see Shrek 2. It looks awesome. I love donkey. He's the best. I kinda feel like I'm like him at times. Do yall agree? I'm also dory from finding nemo though. She's just the most awesomest ever.'Just keep swimmin...'

Aren't we all so cool? My rickey is hiding behind the bunney's ear. Too cute! 

quick post but i just wanted 2 let yall know sumthin that 2 me iz incredibly exciting....I found the rest of my poetry!!! yay i can't believe it...15 more to add to the list...well congratulate me...:D

Well I'm back & living to say the least. Life has been kind of tough lately but I'm working through it i think. One thing though...i must say something....

i don't know how many people there are that like rickey or dislike him or our relationship but here it is plain and simple. I don't care. I know how I feel about him and I'm not going to change that because of how other people feel about him. I am truly happy with this kid. He makes me feel good about me. Not like other guys have but its different. It's new & great. I have so much fun every time I'm with him and can't explain the feeling I get. We will be together till we find a problem and not until then. I know what you are prob. thinking, 'Wow look at how much she cares about my opinion.' But Newsflash! It is my life and will always be that way. I go to those that I feel know me best and see what they think. Some have different opinions than me but the majority likes him. And they can also see how happy I am with him. Therefore don't think stuff like 'he's bad for her' or whatever. I'm happy rite? YES! So let me be please.

Anyways, had to get that off my mind but now I don't have all too much to say. School is coming to an end. We got our yearbooks in and they aren't all too horrible. Life's pretty good rite now. I'll leave you people with this stuff because that's all I can think of for now.

bloggin again and w/in a week! What a concept! Well I'm at my usual dwelling after school now a days & that would b my daddys office. ya just sitting here eating a yummy snocone from tc mm mm good. gotta love it.

well...Had TAKS 2day, not great but gives you a lot of free time to do whatever the heck you feel like after you finish. Me being the oh so smart person I am (yea rite) finished at 9:40ish & then had bout an hour & a half to blow. Well I started on a crossword which made me feel kinda stupid so I moved on to looking at a swimsuit catalogue( I need a new one for the summer) & that began to bore me, so lately I moved on to writing my rickey a note & colorin it cuz of coarse what else was there to do? Then I was so rudely interrupted by cayo known to most as john. nah just messin we started talking and then we moved on to be entrained by the great Carrie herself. Yes, she is very amusing. Got love her. I sure do! Then off to my English class for pizza and a movie. My English class is great. As I often say lol...gotta love it! Tom. We are getting subway & watchin yet another movie. Great stuff. We got two more days of this TAKS mess then an A day. Easy day in other words.

Oh wow! Advice time!!! NEVER EVER NEVER eat like a 1/4 of a pan of 7 layer dip. BIG MISTAKE! I know because I did yesterday. Yes I was the one smart enough to try that out. I was supposed to do a how-to speech in none other than speech class & well I decided to speak on how to make 7 layer dip. The requirements said that if it was food that you had to bring a finished sample. Well I did and I got an 81 on my speech because it was too short. How long can you make it I mean really but anyways not the point. Well I then continued on to pass out some to everyone that wanted to try it & then ended up with about a 1/4 left. Well me being the smart one I am decides 'hey I can just eat this & then I won't have to carry it around all day.' STUPID!!! No instead having to carry a simple little pan around school for a little while I instead made myself want to puke because I had so much food in me & not the greatest food to eat a lot of anyways yah know? That and I had onion breath day after that. Yummy! lol But, I learned my lesson. Take it from me...Just say No!

I don't know who will be reading this but I do have one thing to say to a lot of people. I'm sorry for what I did and to those that know what I'm talking about that means you. I shouldn't have done it and I know I made a huge mistake. I can't in any way make it less than it was and wish I could go back and not have done it. I am however paying for what I have done and it is not fun but I know I deserve it if not more.
To those I haven't really talked to lately, don't think I'm just ignoring you or anything. I just have been as I said yesterday grounded. I will sometime in the near future (in other words a week or so) get to you. Don't think I don't love you because like wow I do.
To those that I have wronged, I love you more than life itself and do not know where I would be without you. I have done so much to hurt you and have tried so hard to hide things from you. Please forgive me. I know what I have done is wrong and by saying all this I am just wanting to let you know. I appreciate everything you do for me and will always know deep in my heart that whether I understand it now or not that you are just trying to do the best thing for me. I thank you from the bottom of my heart an hope to somehow repay you someday.

I'm going to wrap this up for today and leave with this...

We can always ask for forgiveness and the Bible teaches it as well but we can never go back and undo things we've done. So watch your step and don't loose track. You will then not regret things you've done.

its been awhile but i've been busy....well not much 2 say but i'm grounded 4 doin sumthin stupid...ya i wont go into that ....

how iz every1? i'm good, school iz goin better cept 4 AAAHHH!!! TAKS tom! i hate TAKS ugh i hate tests but they're part of life rite? well i'm out 4 now maybe ill post sumthin l8r who knowz

it's been a few days...

well things are going great, i got my rickey & his hair lol...nah i like him for more than his hair. he's greatness. we've gone out on a few lil dates & 2 with Christina & chester who r now official...congrats to my bestest friend! love you chika!

life's goin along, school's well school & church is good. oh & guess wut!!! scarborough fair opens this weekend!!! isn't that the greatest thing ever??? i think so. i love that place! all the food, costumes (i soooo wish i had one), & just the atmosphere....u better believe i'll be there sat. when they open.

well not much else...summers gettin closer..yay! uhh thats all folks!

ya it's been a few days but hey its all good. i've been kinda busy. some1 keeps me up at nite so it's not like i can do much cuz i'm alwayz 2 tired but anywayz...

howz life 4 everyone? peachy i hope. i've been thining about a lot lately and i've made a lot of progress in a lot of ways & i'm proud of myself...u should b proud of me 2! :)

not much 2 really talk about, uh me n rickey r 2gether, uhh gettin a new cell phone, not doin 2 hott in my classes but tryin 2 do well, & uh my men r cuttin their hair..not 2 cool but wut can i do rite? well thats all 4 now..i know not 2 excitin but sry i have a life & i'm not goin 2 waste it on here all the time

Well isn't life just full of surprises?

yes random but if ya knew how my life's been going then u would understand. but how is every1?

i'm great! i'm a free woman & it feels great! i mean don't get me wrong relationships are fun stuff but wow...they can be stressful & middle schoolish. if ya know what i mean. plus, flirting is so much fun and there's always someone watching ya know? oh well other than that & i got my regalia pics & well stuff ;) lol everything iz decent. that stuff is just greatness ya know?

well now it is time for bill 2 just let it all out. not really i just like the way it sounds lol i know i'm strange. here it is though:
Life. got that much? good. What makes it good and fulfilling? What makes a person truly happy? Who's to say that for instance certain clothes or popularity or relationships make people happy? Is it that only certain things can make everyone happy or is it that anything can make anyone happy? I think personally (and if you don't want to hear it don't read it) it all depends on the person, their needs, desires & past on what truly makes one happy. For example being popular could be a dream come true for someone and then it will keep them happy right? NO! People change as does the things that make them happy. We all are happy & yet have our bad days. There are reasons for that. You can not be 'happy' in society's definition and yet still have joy. Yes joy, it is what you have when you have a personal relationship with the most high God of this world. I have that and I'm good. I don't need to be what society believes is happy just so that I can please everyone else. I don't need that. It is a buttload of crap. I have joy & Christ and that is all I ever need for now and forever. Yes, granted there are awesome things in life like the mavs, great friends, family, and more. But all of those are of this world and I don't need them. It has taken me a long time to realize this simple concept. I'm very happy though now and I'm going to enjoy it.

If you actually read through all this, thank you and I appreciate it. Love you guys

ugh...thinkin 2 much has its major downsides.....i hate it...y must i over think everything that ever happens in my life? it's stupid but it's not like i'm stoppin anytime soon & y? i dun even know... i've tried it's not that i haven't it just doesn't work. oh well wut else can ya do?

well the loveliness of the all mighty spring break is now over & school returns tom. lemme tell ya how excited i am...well let's c...i'm not! many reasons but i won't go in2 that. there r 2 or 3 reasons tho that i'm happy bout school coming about again. i won't go in2 those either 4 well, reasons which guess wut! i'm not going 2 go in2 those either...y? cuz i'm allowed 2 do that & if yur just dying 2 know then ask but no promises

well ya this week wuz well ok i guess.....sum things coulda been like 10 times better but the other stuff wuz awesome...thnx 2 those that were involved...luv yall guys.

i'm off 4 now tho but i will ask yall 1 question 1st....is it just me or does the world seem to get more & more corrupt as each day goes by?

well it's spring break...party!!! rite? isn't that how it's suposed 2 b? well wut if i'm happy w/ just hangin out w/ a few friends at diff times throughout the week? 2day wuz really awesome. i saw a few of my men. aren't they great? u gotta luv em all. the rest i will c sumtime throughout the week prob but who knowz rite? i hope so...men r great. i don't know wut i'd do w/o em. i mean chiks r ok but i'd just not rather hang w/ guys but ugh i just can't explain it...guys r just the awesomest

well i'm gettin better & better & lifes lookin up...thinkin bout a lot of stuff but i'm good. well i'm off 2 chill wit the parentals 4 a bit b4 i talk 2 kev & then hopefully sleep.... g'nite & g'day all

i felt like writing so here i am! yes very exciting i know....anywayz who else just absolutely luvs pasta? i think every1 should. why? cuz its just like the best stuff on earth besides like kool-aid & green bean casserole....only 2 name my fav foods....but ya food iz 1a my good friends....yes i sed food iz my friend & why shouldnt it b? anything can b yur friend if ya want it 2 b. or at least i think so. some things just like 2 b difficult like saaayy asparagus...just gross!!! it smells it looks like thick weeds & it tastes like weeds. not cool not a friend of mine

well startin 2 plan out my spring break..so far ive got 2 things goin 4 me & waitin on 2 or 3 people 2 let me know...1 in particular...but we'll c wut happens...it will b fun i'm convinced & if it isnt the best then life goez on its just a week outa life.

ya know wut iz cool that happened 2day? besides the rain...that wuz pretty sweet....i wuz like sittin in my truck & it wuz all like movin & stuff...spiffy let me tell ya. but anywayz....ya so i wuz in french & me & chester were talkin of coarse cuz well we like 2 talk 2 people & we're friends so it works rite? duh! well ya & we started talkin bout food we were wantin & i wuz cravin pizza not that i need it but ya...& get this i kept wantin it more & more as the day went on & i went 2 daddys office after school 2 get sum money & guess wut he had...pizza!!! i know rite its all 2 cool....lol

no u know wut a really good feeling iz? bein pampered for any amount of time...like 2day...o man i luv goin 2 get my nails done...but i went 2day & it mite sound weird but deal wit me...chiks mite know wut im sayin tho..u know how when u get yur nails done & u sumtimes c the 1 person gettin a manicure & pedicure at the same time & u get sumwhat jealous? well :D i got 2 b that person 2day...i felt special...good stuff

well i'm out...think bout this tho...do u ever REALLY know some1? i mean u can know them 4ever & then 1 day they can just outa nowhere surprise u w/ sumthin thats just 'so not them'...i think personally that u never really do know everything bout a person...cuz once u think that they'll just show u sumthin new...

well life def has its twists & turns dont it? i personally think so. but wutever

so every1 ready 4 spring break? i kinda am....its all a weird mind thing...i like it & all but at the same time theres a certain downside 2 it. i wont go into detail but if ya really wana know just ask.

well dun got much else 2 say which seems 2 b a trend lately....more later maybe...if yur lucky

ok again ya its been a while but ask me how much i care...go ahead...ya thats rite i dont...i got enough things that i'm stressed pr wutever bout they i could not care less bout this stupid thing rite now prob the only reason i'm even updatin it iz cuz well i have nuthin better 2 do cuz i have no life...so ya

there iz sum things in life that will continue 2 confuse me till the day i day & i wont go in2 great detail for a few reasons 1 of em iz cuz there iz a lot of people that dun needa know every detail of my life that mite read this....lets just say that i c how some people can act so well if ya know wut i mean....

well i dun got much else 2 say cept dun expect it 2 b soon that i update again...i got better (or worse however u choose 2 c it) things 2 worry bout so 4 who knowz how long....cya

wow...things r gettin 10 times better & yet 20 times worse all at the same time. yes i know that doesnt make sense but its true & i understand it so if u dont tough..nah really just ask ill attempt 2 explain my twisted mind.

well sumthin i've been wantin 4 a while now looks like it mite actually b happenin... & its prob not what sum of u r thinkin...in other words its not kevin lol. but ya i'm happy its prob goin on. if ya dun get the point...i'm not goin 2 tell u! y? cuz i dun gotta thats y

schools not goin 2 well rite now...between sum of the people, not understandin, & failin cuz of all that its just bad. mostly math...ya know that stupid sayin ' math iz yur friend'? i dun know if i know anything farther from the truth. its makin my life 10 times worse than it has 2 b. i dun get it no matter how easy it iz & so i go 2 tutorials 2 try & get help wit it but that doesnt work so i study & that doesnt either so i fail the tests & blah blah blah...its stupid then theres just other crap i dun really wana talk bout...

anywayz on a better note..mavs game thurs. yay! i luv my mavs! especially my nashy..hez my tigger bear yes i sed tigger bear...i'm strange i know but thats y most of yall luv me rite? or at least i hope ya luv me otherwise i dun know y u'd b readin this...unless yur strange 2..then we'd get along great or at least i would think so...no i'm not blabbin really!!!

yes now i'm gettin off cuz i dun know wut else 2 say but iz it just me or iz it possible 2 feel totally depressed & have no clue y?

ya i've been really stressed lately & havent been able 2 write w/o thinkin of sumthin else so i havent....but ya...lifes been crazy & i fell i drag people down sumtimes cuz my attitude & outlook on life really sux & granted i've been tryin 2 fix it since who knowz when i believe it wuz when i met eddie ( stupid i know) but ya i just ugh. some1 just help me i'm not good at this....

ya so things r kinda goin pretty well tho i wont mention wut those r. then this weekend should b awesome & if its not then i must hurt somebody 4 ruining it cuz i need a good weekend bout now cuz once i get grades back it mite b awhile b4 i can even have a decent weekend but wutever.

i'm pretty much done here 4 now but i must say...there r a few people that i've been really thankful 4 lately, i dont know if u know who u r but i've prob told u. i luv all my friends but sumtimes i just idn sum r better than others if ya know wut i mean & 2 those that have been there 4 me lately....i can't thank u enough, yall mean the world 2 me...

k now i must go so i can get ready 2 go out 2nite..joy rite? well till next time...

went 2 the mavs game tues. & of coarse luved it cuz well, i got the mavs (including my nash!!!), junk food, daddy, & a great bball game 2 enjoy...few things can b better. the only bad thing iz i wuz goin 2 get my jersey that i want all 2 much & well they didnt have the 1 i wanted....grrr at them..but i will have that jersey at some point in the near future no matter wut i have 2 do....

had a great bday...well mostly the fam had sum issues that nite & we still dun know how it turned out but just pray bout it...all in all my great grandmother & prob the person i wuz the closest 2 on my dads side mite b leavin us all soon but we dun know yet cuz tests & meds r still goin on but ya...prayer is all that i can do rite now. but anywayz ya i wore a great outfit, that i even thought i looked good in, hung out wit 1a my best friends after school i luv u manda!!!, then went 2 kevs house & chilled until church, then starbucks yumm, then church alwayz good stuff, & then took my alan home & we talked 4 a bit aw i luv him, then home 2 the phone & then ya the bad newz came but o well.

been havin a great week actually. last nite wuz kinda diff i mean most of it wuz good but i mean sum of it coula been 10 times better & i wish it wuz but life happens rite? that and 2day didnt turn out at all like i had planned but due 2 the weather & parents (not mine in particular) plans were cancelled and things were changed & i ended up doin a whole lotta nuthin 2day. lets c wut i did...woke up, went back 2 bed, got up again, kev called, took a shower, phone, tv, nap(i know i know), tv till now...pathetic i know...o well 1 more v-day that i did nuthin, just add it 2 the list of em rite? hopefully..the rest of the long weekend will make up 4 it but who knowz...

well i gotta question 2 leave yall wit....dun ya hate it when sum1 talks bout sumthin & then they dun tell u wut it iz? no matter wut?...ugh i hate that

got the ol birthday thing goin on tom...but all i'm doin iz goin 2 school church & 2 get my license renewed...jooyy lemme tell ya or not. anywayz ya dun really have much 2 say...v-day this sat...but ya i'm goin 2 go 2 bed...long but good day( mavs game baby)...of coarse they won & i wuz happy...but ya g'nite

wow...its been a long week but it all paid off yest nite at regalia. lol there are some things that made me laugh soo hard & then some that just made me happy and then some yet that were just kinda strange. but altogether the nite was awesome. i mean like wow...i thought the whole date date no date thing would b a prob but it ended up bein really cool. im not 1 that likes 2 dress up or even enjoys it in the slightest but last nite i felt sooo good cuz i got so many reactions that were like wow...i would never expect any1 2 say sum of the stuff people did. thnx guys, i luv yall! ya the whole actually dancing thing wuz kinda eh 4 me at the beginning but then after a bit i kinda got in2 it lol...then kile & all them started swing dancin & me knowin i cant dance worth crap just kinda stood there but then lol kile tried teachin me..lemme tell ya that wuz interesting but wutever it wuz a lot of fun & fyi 4 any1 who hasnt been out there...the cheesecake factory iz yummy like really yummy, oooh i had a cafe mocha & it wuz soo good. anywayz tho...

now theres nuthin big comin up unless u count my bday & v-day which eh..i hate the holiday...i mean who came up wit it? its like sum1 sat there 1 day & wuz like 'hey why dun we make up a holiday so the flower, stuffed animal, & candy people can make like a buttload of money & we can blame it all on this whole 'love' kick'....am i just like rambling or do i make any sense?

ugh well i'm exhausted from it all in a good way i mean i even took a nap 2day..amazing rite? i thought so but my feet are planning my murder & my hair iz all fro'd out & im bout 2 go pick up the pics of the nite....so hope if u went u had a great time 2 & if not theres alwayz next time

ya havent written in a while but o well rite? kinda been stressed out so wutever....not much 2 say really just kinda blah rite now....but i dun really feel like written so i'm goin 2 go & make sure alls set 4 tom (regalia) 7 i'll update sumtime l8r

i just found out some terrible news....i mean if i told what it was most would think it was stupid but ya just pray for me and all involved even though you dont know whats going on...thnx soo much

ya wana list of things i want 4 my bday? well whether or not u do here it iz...
1 steve nash's hair...yes i know i luv long hair
2 city of angels dvd...the pg13 version dustin!!!
3 steve nash jersey
4 clothes..wut chik doesnt like clothes but i am picky so b careful...or u could just take me & we could chill even better 4 a present
5 gift cards easy rite?
6 money....who doesnt like money?
7 all my friends 2 b happy..weird but true
8 go 2 paris...i know not happenin but i can dream
9 things that have happened 2 b resolved
10 & last but not least....1 heck of a bday no matter how i spend it

ok now 4 the blabbin that i do so well....yes i enjoy it but eh. anywayz how iz every1? i'm good things r gettin better & worse but its life & its all good anywayz...

i love my friends lemme just say that & i know its kinda random but its true & i dun wana not say it & then not b able 2 some day ya know? that would just suck...cuz i can't even express how much i love yall guys. you mean so much to me cuz yur always there for me whether i want you to be or not but you always know when you should. i love the way all of you can make my day better when i need it, and how i can go chill wit sum of yall & 4get bout my probs. i would b here all nite if i wanted 2 name all the reasons so i'll leave it there but you know who you are and ill say it once more....I love you!!!

ok anywayz..question...what is one thing that you wish you could change in your past? i wont say mine cuz only the people that needa know do but i'd love 2 hear yalls answers so u better tell me! lol...g'day

its been awhile ya but ya i havent been 2 talkative lately...o well a lot has been goin on lately 2...thinkin a lot, doin stuff, & then ya of coarse regalia iz comin up & then carries bday was fri.

speakin of her bday i luv carrie i really do & hope her bday wuz great but sat nite we all as in all her friends went out 2 eat & of coarse there wuz a lot of us so there wuz a long wait but ya know wut? i'm sick of how high schoolers think!!! i mean yes i know i am one but i dont believe that i think the same as most others...i c myself as very diff than A LOT of people & am proud of it. i mean they r so close-minded its stupid how bad it iz. i mean its stupid in the 1st place i mean really. just cuz u dun know sum1 doesnt mean u cant talk 2 them ya know? i mean there wuz a lot of us & granted some of us knew each other & sum of us didnt but the 1s that didnt wouldnt talk 2 any1 else...it wuz so ugh! i hate high school cuz of that!!!its sucha drama driven world that is so stupid its not even funny.....

anyways enough bout that...i've been thinkin a lot lately & a friend raised a question the other day...is it possible to fix things that u screwed up in the past?....i've been thinkin bout that a lot & a lot has been goin on & idn wut 2 make of it ya know? i know some things that have happened in the past that people have wished never happened but i mean u cant change the past. u can only hope for the future 2 b that much better so that it makes up for it. in answer to what this person wants to know i still dont know how to say it but i will say this...things can b old & yet very new at the same time...in other words u can b familiar wit sumthin b4 and then not have anything 2 do wit it 4 awhile & then even tho they knew it at one time so well they have changed so its all new c?

ok i'm goin 2 stop blabbin & go watch tv wit a friend since i'm not really in2 the whole football scene...ya know the super bowl so ya..l8rz

ya i'm writin this early 2day cuz well i'm not allowed on the compy after 830 2nite so ya. wow 2day wuz weird but strangely really good...i have a good feeling bout this weekend but who knows what will happen ya know?
i know i sed i'd explain bout yest. but well i dun feel like it..i dun wana put my self in a bad mood 2 please wut the whole 2 people that mite read this...its not worth it.

i was told today that i looked mad when i'm walking...do i? i mean really? i didnt think so...but guess what my response was...of coarse it was oops deal with it...hehe sounds like me rite? well it is...all me & i'm not changin 4 no1 cuz i like me..kinda...lol nah i do most of the time

uh regalia is comin closer & i still need sum shoes 2 go wit my dress but hopefully i'll find those sat. when marta & carrie take me out 2 help me since i have no talent wutsoever when it comes 2 formal stuff. it will be a lot of fun so will the dance even though theres still stuff being worked out. my bday iz comin closer 2! refer 2 my profile on aim if yur clueless 2 when it iz which u mite just b. i dun know wut do do 4 it tho...my parties alwayz suck & i have no clue wut else would b cool...i need a social planner person thing..or just not do anything...thats doable 2. idn wuts goin 2 happen but if ya just wana buy me sumthin then ook i accept lol

well now its time for me to say goodbye to you and hello to some food and mr tv...bye bye

long day..weird stuff...thought bout a lot of stuff...explain l8r

ugh 2day wuz ok but i hate bein sick like wow...& i forgive you marta for making me and everyone else sick....i still love you! anywayz..ya i've been sick & it sux but there r other things going on too. i fig out sum stuff i wuz tryin 2 go me..now sum other stuff still to figure out but that will take some time and some talking to some certain people which i'm not quite looking forward to but life goez on and i cant stop it for me cuz it def doesnt revolve round me.

ya know wut i did 2day? i wuz thinkin of wut i wrote yest. & i wrote a list of what i want to do before i die...it was quite interesting...try it sometime u mite be surprised.

oh man i cant say how much i love poetry! it it such an outlet for me. when i first started writing i thought it was just bout like all this stupid 'love' & crap dun get me into that cuz thats a whole thing in itself but ya its growing into all this other stuff and it not only makes me feel better and all that but makes me feel i'm developing into a better writer which makes me incredibly happy.

well im goin 2 b goin to clean my room...its a weird thing wit me..i get sick i feel the need 2 clean...dun ask

ya i skipped yest. but for good reason...i was exhausted from getting up at 615 on a sun...craziness i tell you craziness! but ya i went to go watch my dads company with another company blow up a building and then a lil after that headed to the mavs game which was of coarse awesome. we won which rocks my face (yes i stole it marta) & then i went up to the church for a few to see what they were doing and then left early & ya...not much after that.

2day was just kinda a school day ya know? i mean the beg. was ok ya know and then came 3rd & 4th period & i was just like grrr ya know? i hate those classes anymore cuz i mean wow ...could they get worse? wait i shouldnt be saying that cuz watch they will. whatever life happens rite? and as one of my good friends always says 'what doesnt kill us makes us stronger.'
o well though....nah today when i got home i wasnt all happy & stuff so i tried watchin a movie but that didnt help all too much even though it was Princess Bride only 1 of the greatest movies ever. Good thing though is that after it i fell asleep but then when i woke up my throat hurt so but it hurt 2 even swallow. ya it sucked & then the rents told me i needed to eat. eh i guess its good for you and all but it stinkin hurt man. oh well i got my cough drops outa my truck & am good until i run out. but i got all this stuff i needa do like get shoes & stuff 4 regalia, hw, clean up everywhere (since i dun really have a room i have many since dustin left including his and the sunroom & ya..so on & so on), & more. joy rite? heh i guess but o well.

i've been thinkin though lately...what do i really want to do in my life before i die? kinda strange to think about but i mean really now...will continue l8r...need sleep like wow

well long day lemme tell ya. it went from this morning i had kevins game & that was cool i pretty sure they won ( as i said long day..dun quite remember) and then i continued to come home and then leave like 5 min l8r 2 go shoe shoppin & stupid stores dun have any good white shoes..wuts that? i mean i need some shoes 2 go wit my dress but cant find any like anywhere but i will i still have 2 weeks. well i went to lunch wit ck and that was a lot of fun. uh what else oh then i chilled at home 4 a bit & then went 2 the final performance of the wizard of oz...good show although some points were kind of cheesy but granted lookin at where its comin from u r askin 4 cheese rite? lol yes i'm strange. but it was good all together. the costumes were great, great actors, and great music..yup cool. well then i found out i'm goin 2 the mavs game wit my johnny...awww i luv him hez my friend..lol amazing rite? lol nah him & nash & a bball game..fun stuff rite there. then i came home & i'm eatin 1a my strange meals that i enjoy but not often..maccaroni & tuna man..again wit the i'm strange thing. it explains all. well now i must be goin so i can sleep & wake up in the mornin to go to watch my dads work blow up a building & then off 2 the mavs game baby!!! score ya i'm leavin now...g'nite & g'day 2 all

wow...2day what a day rite? i had a great day or at least nite...went out wit my two hot dates ya thats rite two. i'm that good. lol not it was adri & manda...aww i love them they are soo awesome. we went and saw a few people throughout the nite & adri found a dress for regalia. exciting rite? i think so. nah we had so much fun 2nite. o and we went to alan's bball game that was fun and they won so its all good rite? nah i got my dress for regalia & when i tried it on my dad wuz like all wow. ya i think that means he liked it.....lol duh everyone thats seen it luvs it & i just hope i look as good as they say...i'm like way self conscious bout it all but o well rite? if it dont look good then 1 nite of my life i look bad so its not going to kill me or anything. anywayz ya great day...i love my friends they are the best. just thought i'd say that. but i'm going to head out...waking up early tom. so ya...

ya i missed a a day cuz the stupid net wuz messed. man ugh....2 much goin through my head rite now. but hey i get 2 go 2 the mavs game 2nite so its all good rite? plus i'm goin 2 regalia. sweet rite? i'm not really in the mood 2 write but i'm just updatin peoples that wana know bout my life. not much else 2 say but i went 2 the dr 4 my migraines & ya...well i'm out 4 now...prob wont b back 2day

ugh 2day sucked like wow....i had a migraine when i woke up & then looked like crap 2day cuz of it then i took sum drugs 4 that that. School just had to happen today and if it hadnt maybe i wouldnt have had as bad as a day. People have no sympathy for you when you have a migraine. It's craziness. I mean it's not like i'm asking for anything big just don't mess with me & it will all be good but no. I actually had to do work in tech and then in physics the stinkin teacher moved me from my only friend that was left in there by the counselors. sometimes i think that they just change everyones schedules around just to watch us suffer without our friends. o well can't really do anything about it can i? nope sadly. well he wouldn't let me go to the clinic for some reason or another for awhile and then i finally go & the nurse walks out rite as i get in there. ugh man that didn't help. Well then she finally comes back in there & says pretty much that i need to go to the dr. for medicine to stop those stupid things form coming again.
oh then there was also in 3rd chester was being all weird & ya. lunch was cool though i guess. and i got to talk to my lovely adri after school...her and my sexy manda but she had to go really quick. ugh...i'm just going to go and get some drugs & maybe some food and just chill for awhile cuz i gotta feel better b4 the mavs game 2nite...wish i was going but i'm goin on thurs to the mavs vs. lakers so its all good.

good day...woke up late sat around for awhile and then dropped my mother off to get a rental car cuz hers is broken and then met her at the mall to pick something up. yay mite i add. now i'm home alone for who knowz how long and hopefully awhile but prob not. o well i'm hungry too. maybe i should go eat or something. i will later. for right now i'm going to go change but question first....
why is it that men alwayz seem bipolar? or is it just me

ahh...good day cept the old migraine thing. I don't know where it comes from but i feel like i think the weirdest things at times but o well rite? its fun i guess, wondering if anybody else in the world will ever or has ever thought the exact thought u r thinking at one moment. cool rite? just one of those weird things i think.

i needa go get my phone fixed its gettin crappier & crappier as time goez on.....but i dun know when 2 take it ya know? o well someday i'll go. but i'm goin 2 go 4 the nite...g'nite all & hope every1 has a great day off tom.

man bein a chik kinda sux sumtimes but wut can ya do rite? o well i cant do nuthin so y complain rite? i'm good tho. My day has been really long. I got to see my sexy haired johnny though which iz alwayz good cuz well obviously he'z got great hair cuz well it's long so hello! yes i have an obsession with guys with long hair (within reason of coarse). But other than church bein good i went 2 do sum french hw at starbucks & got a mocha frap which wuz of coarse awesome. i love those things well for one they taste good for two they got caffeine but that didnt really help me out today however surprising that mite be. oh well. I'm just kinda out of it rite now. just sittin here bout to go get sum drugs cuz i got a migraine so ya...well i mite post again l8r but who knowz but rite now i'm tired & in pain so it stops here