went 2 the mavs game tues. & of coarse luved it cuz well, i got the mavs (including my nash!!!), junk food, daddy, & a great bball game 2 enjoy...few things can b better. the only bad thing iz i wuz goin 2 get my jersey that i want all 2 much & well they didnt have the 1 i wanted....grrr at them..but i will have that jersey at some point in the near future no matter wut i have 2 do....

had a great bday...well mostly the fam had sum issues that nite & we still dun know how it turned out but just pray bout it...all in all my great grandmother & prob the person i wuz the closest 2 on my dads side mite b leavin us all soon but we dun know yet cuz tests & meds r still goin on but ya...prayer is all that i can do rite now. but anywayz ya i wore a great outfit, that i even thought i looked good in, hung out wit 1a my best friends after school i luv u manda!!!, then went 2 kevs house & chilled until church, then starbucks yumm, then church alwayz good stuff, & then took my alan home & we talked 4 a bit aw i luv him, then home 2 the phone & then ya the bad newz came but o well.

been havin a great week actually. last nite wuz kinda diff i mean most of it wuz good but i mean sum of it coula been 10 times better & i wish it wuz but life happens rite? that and 2day didnt turn out at all like i had planned but due 2 the weather & parents (not mine in particular) plans were cancelled and things were changed & i ended up doin a whole lotta nuthin 2day. lets c wut i did...woke up, went back 2 bed, got up again, kev called, took a shower, phone, tv, nap(i know i know), tv till now...pathetic i know...o well 1 more v-day that i did nuthin, just add it 2 the list of em rite? hopefully..the rest of the long weekend will make up 4 it but who knowz...

well i gotta question 2 leave yall wit....dun ya hate it when sum1 talks bout sumthin & then they dun tell u wut it iz? no matter wut?...ugh i hate that

got the ol birthday thing goin on tom...but all i'm doin iz goin 2 school church & 2 get my license renewed...jooyy lemme tell ya or not. anywayz ya dun really have much 2 say...v-day this sat...but ya i'm goin 2 go 2 bed...long but good day( mavs game baby)...of coarse they won & i wuz happy...but ya g'nite

wow...its been a long week but it all paid off yest nite at regalia. lol there are some things that made me laugh soo hard & then some that just made me happy and then some yet that were just kinda strange. but altogether the nite was awesome. i mean like wow...i thought the whole date date no date thing would b a prob but it ended up bein really cool. im not 1 that likes 2 dress up or even enjoys it in the slightest but last nite i felt sooo good cuz i got so many reactions that were like wow...i would never expect any1 2 say sum of the stuff people did. thnx guys, i luv yall! ya the whole actually dancing thing wuz kinda eh 4 me at the beginning but then after a bit i kinda got in2 it lol...then kile & all them started swing dancin & me knowin i cant dance worth crap just kinda stood there but then lol kile tried teachin me..lemme tell ya that wuz interesting but wutever it wuz a lot of fun & fyi 4 any1 who hasnt been out there...the cheesecake factory iz yummy like really yummy, oooh i had a cafe mocha & it wuz soo good. anywayz tho...

now theres nuthin big comin up unless u count my bday & v-day which eh..i hate the holiday...i mean who came up wit it? its like sum1 sat there 1 day & wuz like 'hey why dun we make up a holiday so the flower, stuffed animal, & candy people can make like a buttload of money & we can blame it all on this whole 'love' kick'....am i just like rambling or do i make any sense?

ugh well i'm exhausted from it all in a good way i mean i even took a nap 2day..amazing rite? i thought so but my feet are planning my murder & my hair iz all fro'd out & im bout 2 go pick up the pics of the nite....so hope if u went u had a great time 2 & if not theres alwayz next time

ya havent written in a while but o well rite? kinda been stressed out so wutever....not much 2 say really just kinda blah rite now....but i dun really feel like written so i'm goin 2 go & make sure alls set 4 tom (regalia) 7 i'll update sumtime l8r

i just found out some terrible news....i mean if i told what it was most would think it was stupid but ya just pray for me and all involved even though you dont know whats going on...thnx soo much

ya wana list of things i want 4 my bday? well whether or not u do here it iz...
1 steve nash's hair...yes i know i luv long hair
2 city of angels dvd...the pg13 version dustin!!!
3 steve nash jersey
4 clothes..wut chik doesnt like clothes but i am picky so b careful...or u could just take me & we could chill even better 4 a present
5 gift cards easy rite?
6 money....who doesnt like money?
7 all my friends 2 b happy..weird but true
8 go 2 paris...i know not happenin but i can dream
9 things that have happened 2 b resolved
10 & last but not least....1 heck of a bday no matter how i spend it

ok now 4 the blabbin that i do so well....yes i enjoy it but eh. anywayz how iz every1? i'm good things r gettin better & worse but its life & its all good anywayz...

i love my friends lemme just say that & i know its kinda random but its true & i dun wana not say it & then not b able 2 some day ya know? that would just suck...cuz i can't even express how much i love yall guys. you mean so much to me cuz yur always there for me whether i want you to be or not but you always know when you should. i love the way all of you can make my day better when i need it, and how i can go chill wit sum of yall & 4get bout my probs. i would b here all nite if i wanted 2 name all the reasons so i'll leave it there but you know who you are and ill say it once more....I love you!!!

ok anywayz..question...what is one thing that you wish you could change in your past? i wont say mine cuz only the people that needa know do but i'd love 2 hear yalls answers so u better tell me! lol...g'day

its been awhile ya but ya i havent been 2 talkative lately...o well a lot has been goin on lately 2...thinkin a lot, doin stuff, & then ya of coarse regalia iz comin up & then carries bday was fri.

speakin of her bday i luv carrie i really do & hope her bday wuz great but sat nite we all as in all her friends went out 2 eat & of coarse there wuz a lot of us so there wuz a long wait but ya know wut? i'm sick of how high schoolers think!!! i mean yes i know i am one but i dont believe that i think the same as most others...i c myself as very diff than A LOT of people & am proud of it. i mean they r so close-minded its stupid how bad it iz. i mean its stupid in the 1st place i mean really. just cuz u dun know sum1 doesnt mean u cant talk 2 them ya know? i mean there wuz a lot of us & granted some of us knew each other & sum of us didnt but the 1s that didnt wouldnt talk 2 any1 else...it wuz so ugh! i hate high school cuz of that!!!its sucha drama driven world that is so stupid its not even funny.....

anyways enough bout that...i've been thinkin a lot lately & a friend raised a question the other day...is it possible to fix things that u screwed up in the past?....i've been thinkin bout that a lot & a lot has been goin on & idn wut 2 make of it ya know? i know some things that have happened in the past that people have wished never happened but i mean u cant change the past. u can only hope for the future 2 b that much better so that it makes up for it. in answer to what this person wants to know i still dont know how to say it but i will say this...things can b old & yet very new at the same time...in other words u can b familiar wit sumthin b4 and then not have anything 2 do wit it 4 awhile & then even tho they knew it at one time so well they have changed so its all new c?

ok i'm goin 2 stop blabbin & go watch tv wit a friend since i'm not really in2 the whole football scene...ya know the super bowl so ya..l8rz

ya i'm writin this early 2day cuz well i'm not allowed on the compy after 830 2nite so ya. wow 2day wuz weird but strangely really good...i have a good feeling bout this weekend but who knows what will happen ya know?
i know i sed i'd explain bout yest. but well i dun feel like it..i dun wana put my self in a bad mood 2 please wut the whole 2 people that mite read this...its not worth it.

i was told today that i looked mad when i'm walking...do i? i mean really? i didnt think so...but guess what my response was...of coarse it was oops deal with it...hehe sounds like me rite? well it is...all me & i'm not changin 4 no1 cuz i like me..kinda...lol nah i do most of the time

uh regalia is comin closer & i still need sum shoes 2 go wit my dress but hopefully i'll find those sat. when marta & carrie take me out 2 help me since i have no talent wutsoever when it comes 2 formal stuff. it will be a lot of fun so will the dance even though theres still stuff being worked out. my bday iz comin closer 2! refer 2 my profile on aim if yur clueless 2 when it iz which u mite just b. i dun know wut do do 4 it tho...my parties alwayz suck & i have no clue wut else would b cool...i need a social planner person thing..or just not do anything...thats doable 2. idn wuts goin 2 happen but if ya just wana buy me sumthin then ook i accept lol

well now its time for me to say goodbye to you and hello to some food and mr tv...bye bye

long day..weird stuff...thought bout a lot of stuff...explain l8r

ugh 2day wuz ok but i hate bein sick like wow...& i forgive you marta for making me and everyone else sick....i still love you! anywayz..ya i've been sick & it sux but there r other things going on too. i fig out sum stuff i wuz tryin 2 go me..now sum other stuff still to figure out but that will take some time and some talking to some certain people which i'm not quite looking forward to but life goez on and i cant stop it for me cuz it def doesnt revolve round me.

ya know wut i did 2day? i wuz thinkin of wut i wrote yest. & i wrote a list of what i want to do before i die...it was quite interesting...try it sometime u mite be surprised.

oh man i cant say how much i love poetry! it it such an outlet for me. when i first started writing i thought it was just bout like all this stupid 'love' & crap dun get me into that cuz thats a whole thing in itself but ya its growing into all this other stuff and it not only makes me feel better and all that but makes me feel i'm developing into a better writer which makes me incredibly happy.

well im goin 2 b goin to clean my room...its a weird thing wit me..i get sick i feel the need 2 clean...dun ask

ya i skipped yest. but for good reason...i was exhausted from getting up at 615 on a sun...craziness i tell you craziness! but ya i went to go watch my dads company with another company blow up a building and then a lil after that headed to the mavs game which was of coarse awesome. we won which rocks my face (yes i stole it marta) & then i went up to the church for a few to see what they were doing and then left early & ya...not much after that.

2day was just kinda a school day ya know? i mean the beg. was ok ya know and then came 3rd & 4th period & i was just like grrr ya know? i hate those classes anymore cuz i mean wow ...could they get worse? wait i shouldnt be saying that cuz watch they will. whatever life happens rite? and as one of my good friends always says 'what doesnt kill us makes us stronger.'
o well though....nah today when i got home i wasnt all happy & stuff so i tried watchin a movie but that didnt help all too much even though it was Princess Bride only 1 of the greatest movies ever. Good thing though is that after it i fell asleep but then when i woke up my throat hurt so but it hurt 2 even swallow. ya it sucked & then the rents told me i needed to eat. eh i guess its good for you and all but it stinkin hurt man. oh well i got my cough drops outa my truck & am good until i run out. but i got all this stuff i needa do like get shoes & stuff 4 regalia, hw, clean up everywhere (since i dun really have a room i have many since dustin left including his and the sunroom & ya..so on & so on), & more. joy rite? heh i guess but o well.

i've been thinkin though lately...what do i really want to do in my life before i die? kinda strange to think about but i mean really now...will continue l8r...need sleep like wow

well long day lemme tell ya. it went from this morning i had kevins game & that was cool i pretty sure they won ( as i said long day..dun quite remember) and then i continued to come home and then leave like 5 min l8r 2 go shoe shoppin & stupid stores dun have any good white shoes..wuts that? i mean i need some shoes 2 go wit my dress but cant find any like anywhere but i will i still have 2 weeks. well i went to lunch wit ck and that was a lot of fun. uh what else oh then i chilled at home 4 a bit & then went 2 the final performance of the wizard of oz...good show although some points were kind of cheesy but granted lookin at where its comin from u r askin 4 cheese rite? lol yes i'm strange. but it was good all together. the costumes were great, great actors, and great music..yup cool. well then i found out i'm goin 2 the mavs game wit my johnny...awww i luv him hez my friend..lol amazing rite? lol nah him & nash & a bball game..fun stuff rite there. then i came home & i'm eatin 1a my strange meals that i enjoy but not often..maccaroni & tuna man..again wit the i'm strange thing. it explains all. well now i must be goin so i can sleep & wake up in the mornin to go to watch my dads work blow up a building & then off 2 the mavs game baby!!! score ya i'm leavin now...g'nite & g'day 2 all

wow...2day what a day rite? i had a great day or at least nite...went out wit my two hot dates ya thats rite two. i'm that good. lol not it was adri & manda...aww i love them they are soo awesome. we went and saw a few people throughout the nite & adri found a dress for regalia. exciting rite? i think so. nah we had so much fun 2nite. o and we went to alan's bball game that was fun and they won so its all good rite? nah i got my dress for regalia & when i tried it on my dad wuz like all wow. ya i think that means he liked it.....lol duh everyone thats seen it luvs it & i just hope i look as good as they say...i'm like way self conscious bout it all but o well rite? if it dont look good then 1 nite of my life i look bad so its not going to kill me or anything. anywayz ya great day...i love my friends they are the best. just thought i'd say that. but i'm going to head out...waking up early tom. so ya...

ya i missed a a day cuz the stupid net wuz messed. man ugh....2 much goin through my head rite now. but hey i get 2 go 2 the mavs game 2nite so its all good rite? plus i'm goin 2 regalia. sweet rite? i'm not really in the mood 2 write but i'm just updatin peoples that wana know bout my life. not much else 2 say but i went 2 the dr 4 my migraines & ya...well i'm out 4 now...prob wont b back 2day

ugh 2day sucked like wow....i had a migraine when i woke up & then looked like crap 2day cuz of it then i took sum drugs 4 that that. School just had to happen today and if it hadnt maybe i wouldnt have had as bad as a day. People have no sympathy for you when you have a migraine. It's craziness. I mean it's not like i'm asking for anything big just don't mess with me & it will all be good but no. I actually had to do work in tech and then in physics the stinkin teacher moved me from my only friend that was left in there by the counselors. sometimes i think that they just change everyones schedules around just to watch us suffer without our friends. o well can't really do anything about it can i? nope sadly. well he wouldn't let me go to the clinic for some reason or another for awhile and then i finally go & the nurse walks out rite as i get in there. ugh man that didn't help. Well then she finally comes back in there & says pretty much that i need to go to the dr. for medicine to stop those stupid things form coming again.
oh then there was also in 3rd chester was being all weird & ya. lunch was cool though i guess. and i got to talk to my lovely adri after school...her and my sexy manda but she had to go really quick. ugh...i'm just going to go and get some drugs & maybe some food and just chill for awhile cuz i gotta feel better b4 the mavs game 2nite...wish i was going but i'm goin on thurs to the mavs vs. lakers so its all good.

good day...woke up late sat around for awhile and then dropped my mother off to get a rental car cuz hers is broken and then met her at the mall to pick something up. yay mite i add. now i'm home alone for who knowz how long and hopefully awhile but prob not. o well i'm hungry too. maybe i should go eat or something. i will later. for right now i'm going to go change but question first....
why is it that men alwayz seem bipolar? or is it just me

ahh...good day cept the old migraine thing. I don't know where it comes from but i feel like i think the weirdest things at times but o well rite? its fun i guess, wondering if anybody else in the world will ever or has ever thought the exact thought u r thinking at one moment. cool rite? just one of those weird things i think.

i needa go get my phone fixed its gettin crappier & crappier as time goez on.....but i dun know when 2 take it ya know? o well someday i'll go. but i'm goin 2 go 4 the nite...g'nite all & hope every1 has a great day off tom.

man bein a chik kinda sux sumtimes but wut can ya do rite? o well i cant do nuthin so y complain rite? i'm good tho. My day has been really long. I got to see my sexy haired johnny though which iz alwayz good cuz well obviously he'z got great hair cuz well it's long so hello! yes i have an obsession with guys with long hair (within reason of coarse). But other than church bein good i went 2 do sum french hw at starbucks & got a mocha frap which wuz of coarse awesome. i love those things well for one they taste good for two they got caffeine but that didnt really help me out today however surprising that mite be. oh well. I'm just kinda out of it rite now. just sittin here bout to go get sum drugs cuz i got a migraine so ya...well i mite post again l8r but who knowz but rite now i'm tired & in pain so it stops here

dun really feel like writin but i'm goin 2 anywayz cuz well i'm bout 2 scream & i dun wana do that 2 adri (whos ova by the way) so ya....why must people act one way around people but when you get them alone or sumthin they r like totally diff? i hate that i want 2 make that stop but how? how iz that possible? Impossible rite? no nuthin iz impossible but its just the how to where i get confused.....grrrr. ok i'm fine i'm cool i'm ok.....i'm goin 2 go tho...here's a short version of my day..i did stuff, had sum various emotions & well now i'm gettin off of this dang thing....

good day & besides the kinda bad hair day i actually thought i looked decent crazy rite? i know i know its madness. i wore a skirt if you can take any more craziness. ya i was all preppied out. well the school day wuz well school but i got a nap in alg. & english wuz awesome & then lunch wuz fun as usual & 4th wuznt 2 horribly bad & then after school wuz kinda dull but i got my ring back!! yay! i luv my ring! i picked it out when i wuz a fish when my bro wuz gettin his & got the exact same 1 i picked back then...cool huh? that or i'm just lame lol or weird that works to lol. well then i cam back home and chilled 4 a few and then went off 2 my alans bball game & they won. it was so cute! i luv him! then kevin called & i came home & the stupid game wuz on a channel that i dun have...THAT SUCKED SOO BAD! that and i hate like absolutely hate drivin in rain & well i got 2 all day joy lemme tell ya & kevin heard all bout all that lol bet he enjoyed it lol not! but he had a headache (migraine sry 4 not sayin it rite lol) & it wuz sad but he went 2 bed or sumthin & ya. THE MAVS WON THO!!! it wuz awesome even tho i didnt get 2 watch the game i kept up wit the internet..great idea. went 2 jacks wit ck & had sum fun there while talkin sum stuff out that needs 2 b worked through but its all good. now i'm home 4 the nite & free of parents mite i add. I love my parents & all but sumtimes i need my space ya know? but o well daddy comes home tom. nite & i got the play then so i wont even b home. But i'm goin 2 go 4 the day cuz ck iz spendin the nite cuz she dun want me alone at home all nite so ya....then we got a bball game early in the mornin so hope ya had a good day...g'nite all