not much to say rite now....life's great, got a hc date, BU (Baylor for all of you that are not cool) wuz amazing but exhausting, & i'm kinda sick rite now so i'm out...

AWWW!!! her brother, Jadon. He's the most adorable lil boy ever....even though i might be a lil bias but o well 

isn't she adorable? i miss her so much. I talked to melanie yest. (her mother, my cousin) and she sed that school wuz goin well 4 her which makes me happy. I hope to go see them soon. And good news! She might b comin down 4 my graduation!!! HOw exciting iz that? Two bonuses in one! That thrills me to no end. 

Well this weekend has been awesome so far and hopefully it will just get better. On Friday I had a lot of fun at the game with Ck and hoez and Carrie. OH! And I saw an old friend I haven't talked to in awhile. Josh Kessell! HE is adorable and it was great to see him again. Well after that Ck and I went and hung out at denny's....lol don't ask. Then we went and remembered our childhood by going to a playground. I love those things to no end. They take me back and make me happy. It is awesome going to a playground and remembering all the times that you had in elementary school. Needless to say I had a great time.
Well Sat., I went and chilled with my Manda! at tias. We had so much fun! Daniel was working(my friend I met through my mother.) and we met his friend while we were there. He was really cool. I mean, granted Daniel is awesome so why wouldn't Chris be but ya. We sat and talked and got to know each other. Chris and I talked about how I am going into the ministry and he was really encouraging me in that. It made me happy. Well Manda ended up spending the night and of coarse that was great. I always have such a great time with her. We chased the sunset, we make friends with just about everyone, and we just always have a blast. *Muah* I love you!!!
Well Sunday was, of coarse, church and then after Sunday School I went home and took a nap because of a pesky migraine. Great nap though! After that a few people called and that was cool and I talked to Casey as well. We ended up going to chill later on and we went and saw Bourne Supremacy. It was decent. It was the second time I watched it so yea. I was totally lost the first time and the second time as only a bit better. I understood some of it this time and it wasn't too bad. It was fun though hanging out with him and getting to know him better. He is really easy to talk to. We talked throughout the whole movie almost, lol ok not really but afterwards when we were hanging out at Red Robin we just talked and talked. Great stuff.
Today I was able to sleep in and it felt so good. I talked to Manda once again and I think we might have a hoedown later on. lol Ok not really but I want to have a few people over for a pool partay. It should be cool.
Well I shall be back later but if not.....I love you guys and thanks for making life grand!

I was just looking at my pictures on my computer and saw this one. I miss her so much. She is so adorable and I don't get to see her enough. It is the same with her brother, but I son't have a picture of him on here. I hope to go see them sometime soon thoug. The sooner the better. I love you Jenessa and Jadon! 

so life is going great & I have none other than God to thank for that.

school is goin awesome and i'm loving my classes except for econ which is like wow lame but i gotta pass so....well other than that my job is amazing i am loving it like ya!! it just rocks! uhh wut else.....dun got much else rite now...more l8r....luv yall

I am back! Oh I know you are so excited to hear from me again. I am just that exciting.

So about my week. I had a great week. Insanely full, but oh so good. I love my new job. It is so much fun to take care of kids. I love them so much and my boss is so sweet. She is really cool. I love the kids, we only had a few issues this week but you know how the whole 'gotta test the new girl' thing is. It's all good now though.

School is going great and I have good classes and friends in said classes. It also seems this year that I am getting closer to all of my friends, I really think that it is a blessing from God. Not that I deserve it but it is not like I deserve to live either. He just gives us great things because of His intense love for us. Ain't it grand??

I have been busy with other things to this week. I went and saw my adorable Johnny. He and his band played at Garland High School yesterday night at Battle of the Bands. He was so good. I was amazed. He had great stage presance and sang great as well. I also saw Alyssa there even though I didn't know she would be performing. She was as always great. They both proved to me how much talent they have. Not that they needed to.

Oh I am, as ogf now, at my lovely Amanda Lark's house and we are having tons of fun as we alwyas do. She is my favorite, in the words of J.D. We always have so much fun. Like the time at six flags when we...

Well I am going to go for the night and hang out with her some more. I love you all. *Muah*

well it is the end of the week and i am exhausted but great....

i'm at my mandas eatin sum chinese & havin sum fun....post more l8r......

Wow this week has been crazy yet awesome. Some days were better than other and some blew some out of the water. I had a great weekend although I'm dead from it all now. I shall explain...

First of all I had a good day Friday and then went from school to Chikfila to drop off shibby (serena). Then I went to a what I have been calling job interview. I got it!!! Sorry I'm a bit excited about it. It is the best job ever. I will be taking care of two of the most adorable kids ever for about 2 and a half hours a day. You want to know how much? Ten bucks an hr plus gas money to take the little girl to dance classes. Then I don't even work on Fridays. It should be great.

We had the welcome to the youth group retreat Friday night for all the incoming 7th graders and i;m what we call a big sister so i went. I met my little sister, Courtney Samson, who is lemme tell ya awesome. We had a lot of fun which included a flour fight which cool and just yea. We stayed up till 530 and then woke up at 10. Craziness i tell you craziness!

Then sat. night i was supposed to go to hang out with someone but they never called so I chilled with Shibby. She ended up spending the night and we went to church for the promotion sunday thing. I am in my daddy's ss class now. Then lunch at spring creek which was awesome & then home for a min. just to leave again to go to the mall where I got a new hoodie. It's green! :) Then church and SNAC afterwards which was cool. I'm soo tired now but I think it was worth it.

I will leave you with this though. NEVER share a full size bed with two other people.....BIG mistake!

small pst for now.....school is goin great so far....Seniors!!!

School starts tomarrow. I'm kind of excited. I must be going though so I can get enough sleep. I am getting up at 4:30 after all. I love going to church! :) If you want to know what the stink I am talking about ask. G'nite all & G'luck with school. 05!!!

I can't sleep and I decided to make a post randomly. I don't know what it will be about but I have a lot going through my head at the moment I don't know if I could even type it all out before it jumps right back out.

My mind has been racing lately and not about anything in particular but just everything in general. I am kind of in awe of it. I just keep thinking about everything from school starting to friendships to who knows what else. I just will be sitting there and doing generally nothing and my mind will start thinking and probing the deepest thoughts of my mind. Like...

"Will I ever truly make the difference I pray to?"

or

"How can I be a senior in high school already, I'm not what it takes."

or

"Why is it that it seems that when I finally make a real connection with someone
[I don't want to say their name.], they check out of my life."

I just, I don't know if it is just the mood I am in right now, being tired or what but I just feel so out there. I feel as if I can't concentrate. And if I do, it is about something that if I keep thinking about it that it can in some way depress me. I do not know what is going on or what to think. I'm lost in my own head no matter how crazy that sounds. I feel as if I am right now. Crazy that is.

I hope I'm not scaring anyone who might be reading this but I do not try to hide myself. I tell it like I feel it. Whoever is happening to read this just pray for me because this is maybe the second or third night this has happened and it gets worse every night and I just pray that I can move on so that I can sleep soundly in preparation for school and what not.

It could just be a teenager thing but I don't know. I do know though that I have my senior year of high school coming up and to be truly honest I am scared. People, from what I know, go into their senior year with all this confidence in what they are going to do or who they are or what have you and I am over here and I just want to do God's will for my life and I don't know what that is. I am one of those people that likes to know where they are going, but I have no clue. I know I just need to keep Him first and that He will always be there for me, but I just know that there are things that I will be going back to and it is going to be some of the hardest times in my life because of all the things I have done in the past and what I will be tempted with. I have changed over the summer and by no means want to go back to where I was. It terrifies me just to think that I could end up there again. I don't want to even think about it. I just pray just God will give me the strength I need to make it through and to hear what He wants me to do when it comes to college and my future.

I ask of you, my friends, that you pray for me and others who might be going through these things:

• Life and its temptations might bring that it will not keep us down.
• Those who are in doubt of what their future might be when it comes to planning college.
• Those who will be going back to school changed and new and that they will be strong in the Lord our God.
• And lastly, that all who know Him shine His light that all my see His glory.

These are my thoughts and prayers. My dreams are that you may take them and change the world with what you may do with them. I am not my own. I am God's, and He has spoken through me.

I was informed lately by the lovely Megan Campbell that I have lied to you, my devoted readers. LOL ok yes, I did say something that I didn't quite keep to but I am going to try to fix that right now and for the next few days. I said in one of my past posts that I was going to say something to all of my friends, a long task I know but it is worth it in my eyes. First though I must say yet another thing about my gorgeous Manda...
Manda, yesterday was amazing! Thank you so much for going with me. I had so much fun & it was one of the best days of my summer. You and me are two crazy chiks and it is even worse when we are together. You have the greatest attitude and I love being around you. I don't think I have laughed that much in a long time. We were all over the place and we made it count. We accomplished our goal. lol No matter how strange we were acting. We talked to our adorable Joseph and you met Daniel and saw how dramatic and great he is. I love that we can just be hanging out in a parking lot and have fun. I don't know what it is about the time that we spend but it just gets better and better. Thanks for everything yesterday and I will pay you back the ten bucks. Love you!
Now for Marta, wow what a long list of things I could say. A lot of the things that I could mention for her are our insiders. Those will live on forever and will always make me laugh. We just act stupid most of the time and have a great time doing it. There are times though when we get really serious and the conversations are deep and meaningful. Those times I truly know that I am blessed with her friendship. I love the things we talk about and how we can talk about almost anything and have debates and yet still go away not hating each other for having totally different opinions. Her friendship has meant a lot to me over the years through insight she has, to the fun she brings, or the spiritual guidance she gives to me. She is a amazing person and I'm so happy that she has 'perfect lil David' to be there for her and love her. He makes her feel like she is worth what she really is unlike so many people cannot do. I love you Marta and thank you for everything.
Next going to have to be the greatest guy ever...None other than the only Brian Dean. He is the just wow. He has always sat and listened to all my spills about my life and how much of a drama queen I am. He always helps me out and encourages me. Every time I see him I can't help but smile because he is just that awesome of a person. He is loved by everyone and I appreciate his friendship more than I can say. He encourages me when I am down and makes me laugh when I feel like there's nothing to be happy about. He gives me hope that life will be ok. I have known him since forever and a year ago and thank God for every moment I have. Thank you for just being there Brian and I just hope that somehow someday I can repay you for all you have done.
Amy! My gorgeous friend that I love so much. Aww what can I say about you. You make me laugh so hard that I am in pain. I have so much fun with you and you make me forget all my problems and worries. We just have fun and I could never thank you enough for that. You have an amazing joy and gift of just loving and encouraging people and I just hope that by spending time with you that you can rub off on me and I can be as you are. You inspire me to look at the positive side and just to keep praying and everything will be great. You helped bring me out of things that I shouldn't have been into in the first place. I can't thank you enough and Love you with all my heart.
That is all for today, but I shall be back.

I've been meaning to put this on here for awhile but just now found the time/will to actually do it. It is a list that I put together with the help of a few friends on some of things that just make you have what some people might call the warm fuzzies......fyi not in any order

1. (if you are a girl) shaving your legs
2. Cleaning your ears
3. Drinking coffee
4. Getting an extra chicken nugget
5. (if you are a girl) getting new underwear
6. Seeing your best friend
7. Falling asleep by the fire
8. Cuddling with your favorite blanket..even better if it's with your best guy/chik friend
9. Good hair days
10. Driving with the windows down and radio up
11. (if you are a girl) putting on lipgloss
12. Sleeping on clean sheets
13. Burning incense
14. Wearing your favorite outfit
15. Remembering a friend by their smell (as in cologne or perfume)

well let me know wut makes u just feel good...just leave a comment

Yes I'm back and in one day you should be proud...Well i just was watching CMT (country music television for some of you) and i realized something and really started thinking about it. I just hope it inspires you as much it did me.
Well ok, I know all of you have seen at least one music video in your lifetime and if not don't feel bad you aren't missing much. Anyways I was watching a video and saw how much passion the man sang with and just sat and thought and wished that when I sang to my Heavenly Father that I had all the more passion. I mean, He is worth it is He not? It just made me fell like we don't give God the credit we should. And I've realized this before, but this time it was different. I know that the 'Baptist' way of things is that you stand when the song says or sit or whatever. But do you kneel on your knees when the song says? Do you really cry out when it says? I only ask this to you because when I asked myself I was hit by it. I just know that I don't and I wish I did. If only I had the guts to dance when I felt it, or kneel, or cry out even. I just saw the passion in the man singing about things not of God and as Christians we have all the more reason to have passion in everything we do. That includes during worship. I just challenge you as I did myself to not just worship as everyone does because that's what is expected. But I heard a great comment by the assistant dean at Super Summer that I was reminded of..."God does not go by tradition, we do." And in saying that He explained to us that God doesn't care if you go by tradition. He would love it if you danced and raised your hands and cried out to Him. I'm not saying you have to but don't feel as if you have to conform. This is what being the salt of the earth is all about. It is so that we can stand out and separate ourselves from others. Even though it might be from other Christians, it is still setting an example for others to follow and just because you step out of your comfort zone to worship Him as you always have wanted, might just mean that someone will be inspired by you & therefore you have been used by God to teach someone something truly meaningful.

That is my spill for today. I hope it does as much for you as it did for me.

hey everyone, I have a question/rant to share with ya'll for today. Ok, I know sarcasm is big and popular right now but I mean even though I do it I never really thought I actually hurt anyone by it. I never really thought about it until today when someone really close to me said something that hit me really hard. I have been trying to not be so sarcastic and make fun of people as of late but I still do and to those I have I'm truly sorry. I love you and never meant to hurt you. I just never really thougth about it. Well I'm out I just had to get that out for now. God bless all!

Wow, what a day! Guess what I finally got.....a NASH JERSEY!!! Yes it is unbelievable but it happened. I love it soo much. And yes even though he has moved to Phoenix with out me I'm ok.....I will survive As long as I know how to loveI know I'll be alive. I've got all my life to live. I've got all my love to give. I will survive. I will survive....I'm done with the random song and dance for the moment. But yes Nash will continue to be my Nashy and my favorite bball player.
 
   On a more serious note, I got myself a devotional book and I'm excited to say that I used it for the first time today and it was awesome. Before I just tried reading the Bible and it is awesome but I just need something to help me out ya know? Well I love it and am hopefully going to be showing God more and more each day through spending time with Him in my quiet times. He is just incredable isn't He? I think so.
 
    Well I'm off to church and then maybe out or something. Love you guys and God bless!

i love cows! they r the coolest! 

Wow, I can't explain the feeling I have right now. It is just amazing. I know I keep using  those words lately, but I have good reason to especially when talking of Super Summer.
 
       Well ok....Brownwood! It was great! I had so much fun and loved to see Anna, Taylor, Stephen again. I spent all day Sunday with Anna & it was awesome. We went to the so called mall, then to a place called Hastings which was pretty sweet, and then to Taco Bell and had a long deep talk. I thoroughly enjoyed every minute I was in Brownwood. Well I have one complaint but it is my fault. The bed was hard and I froze my butt off in the hotel room. I can't complain though because everything else made up for it. I went by and saw Stephen right before I left with my mother who so graciously went with me. He is an amazing person and I am so happy God gave us the chance to meet. Anna's family was great. They are incredibly sweet and they showed me what a small town is all about and made me love the experience all the more. About my mother and I, we had fun on the way and way back just hanging out. We went by random places on the way home today and it was great. We are both exhausted from all of it though.
 
      My life has been truly blessed and I never took the time to realize it. I have had a great youth minister and it is a shame that it has taken me this long to figure it out. He is a man of God that had truly touched many lives and I am so thankful that I got a chance to be a part of the youth group while He lead it. I wish I could say more but I have so much going through my head right now and am so tired that just ugh ya know? But to wrap this thing up. Chris Trent, we certainly have had our times where we did not agree in the slightest bit, but I have learned after being touched by God that over the years you have truly made an impact on me and I am ever so grateful to you for it. I love you and wish I would have realized earlier what you have done in my life.
 
     I'm out for today. It's been a long one and I need some sleep. G'night all!

hey every1! how ya'll doin? i'm great...i just love kids. I had to get that out. They are so adorable and I'm loving teaching them in vbs this week. I can't wait to go to Brownwood. It is going to be nice to see some of my camp people again. I miss them so much. I miss my super summer peoples too. The two guys that are near me are busy a lot. Well aaron has been outa town on mission trip but stephen is an awesome friend. God knows what he's doing when He puts people into family groups and things. God is soo good.
 
    Well that's about all I have to say for today. I love you guys.