I'm not getting along with blogger rite now because it just erased like a ton of writing but I'm ok.
 
   In short what I said was I had an amazing time at super summer. I met like four guys I wish I could marry them all because they are all what I want my husband to be like. I dedicated my life to full time Christian ministry. I learned so much. I can't wait to make a difference in any way I can. I just hope that you all can experience what I am. It is indescribable.
 
  Last but certainly not least I want to share my new life verse with you. I read it in my quiet time this morning. It is actually two verses but ya..... 1 Corinthians 10:31-32 ......read those and let me know what you think.

aw my camp groupies, gotta love 'em, i sure do 

NNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! my Nash is gone from the mavericks! How could this happen? This is so not cool he was my favorite player. His beautiful long brown hair, his skill, awe why Nash? Just cuz they offer you 15 million more why? what about the fans that love you in Dallas? what about them? Do you not care? Do they not matter? They love you. i love you. you let us down. You traded us for phoenix? Who cares about them? Not us....Well except for the fact that you are now there. Even though you left me i'll still support you. i don't know who else will but i will. You are my Nash and even though you are a trader i'll be there to cheer you on.

So, life is moving along quite well must I say. I'm loving the fact that Alan & I are getting close again, & Kaiser and I are becoming better friends. Our little group is just awesome and it is always fun with them.
I am spending a lot more time with Amanda which I always love because she is one of my very best friends and nobody could ever replace her for anything. She inspires me sometimes to do things I normally would never do. She gives me hope in the times that I am lacking in faith. The light that she brings to my life makes me a better person for knowing her. I can't believe God has blessed me with a person like her. She is a one of a kind. I love you Amanda!!!
Well if I'm going to go off on 1 of my best friends, I must continue with the others because I wouldn't want to leave anyone out.
Alan, what is there to say about him. Well, so much in fact that I could go on for hours as well as I could have with Amanda but more so because he has always been my best guy friend in the world. Nothing could ever change how I feel about him and he is an incredible person. He is the only one that can truly make me happy even though I am in the worst mood. He is there for me even when we haven't exactly been close lately. He can always make me laugh. He knows what to say and when to say it. He is also an amazing blessing in my life. I love you Alan!!!
Christina, where do I start? She has been there with me since first grade and if we would have met before then I bet it would be longer. She has stuck with me through everything and many a time gone through the same thing at the same time. We have shared many a good time and bad. We have so many inside jokes that we can't even remember them all. We have our places where we only go with just us. We have our 'OCD' moments, and also our looking back moments. She has had an incredible impact on my life and has at times saved me from making huge mistakes. For all of this I love her and always will.

For now I am going to put this on hold because my back is hurting but I will continue at some time tomorrow. If I haven't said something to you yet just wait, I will. I just want everyone to know why I am doing this though. I love my friends and at no point in time do I truly tell them what I feel. I would never want something to happen and whoever not know. I love everyone that I know, but some of the people in my life, they truly are priceless.

Wow, that is about the only word I can use to describe my week at camp. It was just incredible and I don't really know how to describe it except that I met some amazing people that I can only pray that I can manage to keep in touch with. The pastor was great, my family group was greater than words, and God really spoke to me through it all. He truly showed me service through my family group leader Stephen and that showed me what I really need to be like. I can only pray that God will use me for him as he did Stephen. I even enjoyed rec. This year which probably surprises most of you. It was just a great week. I really hope we go back next year.

Well not much else to report but I am now single and might I add loving it. I am getting to get closer to Alan again which makes me happy. He's a great guy & I love him.

I'm out for the night though because camp was great but I'm tired now.

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY!!! to all you dads out there hope it's a great one for ya....yall guys are great and your children are truely touched by what you do.

So it's been awhile and a lot has happened and well one of those things is that me & rickey are ova. I won't go into details & all that because it's not that important but ya. It really ended today but kinda yesterday.
Anywayz, I leave for youth camp monday and can't wait. It should be awesome and I get to room with my manda so that iz going to be sweet. Well mission trip was great I had my moments but everyone does.
I'm loving life and plan on hanging out with more of my friends now that I'm a single woman. OK now whered I put the now serving sign for all the men waiting for me?...hmm lol yea right!
Well I'm off 2 bed 4 now but more to come so don't miss out. Luv yall

Wow, this weekend was kinda weird. i don't know why but it has been. It is over now but still. It was a mixture of things like Adri spending the night, her and Dana swimmin with me, gettin a sunburn on my butt (which i don't know how it happened because make no mistake i was wearing a swimsuit), and my dad's bday. A lot going on that's for sure.

Man 2 more days. The sucky part about that though is two days later i leave for mission trip and ya. I mean i get to spend time with all my church people but not with my rickey whom i miss seeing. I can't even talk to him really now. I just miss him. He's my lil rickey and yet he's...ugh i won't bore you with the details of my life.

I'm out for now and i might post another time before i leave but who knows. Gnight all

Wow...What a day! Craziness I tell you craziness!

After a day like this I just don't feel like doing much. I just want to go home and watch a sad movie or something ya know? I don't want to talk about it because I've already done enough of that but ya. Nah I also want to just like go home & lay out or something, not because it would help me get a tan because well yea right! But ya it's just a good feeling. I just want to chill by myself but whatever.

Schools out, senior...whoop de doo...Yes I'm not all that excited but I think it is just the whole day getting to me. Whatever though I'll stop complaining and blabbing and let ya'll go...

Well, I'm here at the ol' office again. I'm going to the dentist in a few but other than that I'm bored and I thought I'd blog before I left.

So one more exam and I'm a senior in high school. Scary rite? I know. It really is. Me of all people being a leader in the school. Granted it is only because of the whole being older thing but still. It means that younger people might look up to me as an example. Not because I'm tall or anything but Because I'm a senior. I never knew what the allure was to being a senior although as most do, I dreamed of the days that I would become one. Now that I am so close it doesn't really seem all as great as I once dreamed. Maybe I just know better than to think it is some big thing anymore or maybe I just haven't realized I don't know. It is a scary thought in a way though. Just think all you juniors, almost seniors, in a year from now we will be getting ready to move out of our home that we've lived in for so long and out into the world to try to accomplish great things. I don't know if I'm ready for the whole world ya know? I mean don't get me wrong I'm excited but still.

Summer is going to be busy I think. I already have things planned out for a lot of it. I already have a party thing this coming friday at my house. I got stuff with my Rickey on sat. Next week I'm not quite sure what all is going on. I know it's going to be somewhat busy though. Craziness I know.

Well I'm out for now. Going to the dentist and then home to wait for dad to head to go swimsuit shopping. G'day all!

i've been thinking a lot lately about my lil 2nd cousin. I miss her alot. I'm hoping to get to go visit her, her brother, and her mother which is my fav. cousin in the world. She is just the best. No, but this is a picture of me with Jenessa around the end of December last year. I can't wait to see her again. She's the cutest. Also another plus, she gives me a workout lol. :) 

i had a good nite although it woulda been better if i got to talk to my rickey but thats my fault. But ya, i went to see Shrek 2 which was funny and before that i went and tried on like 50 swimsuits &get this get to go tom & try on some more & even better...i get to get a top that shows my stomach!!! You know how much easier that makes it to find one i like? like wow!?! & i found the cutest one but daddy & me gotta agree on one ya know? I'll be sure to update yall tom. though after i get it. Whatever it is it'll be better than any other one I've ever had. anywayz....I'm gone for the nite...But here's something you might wana try...The grilled chicken wrap from sonic actually really good...ya I'm out

Ah, yes i can now post pics on here & u better believe I'll b doin it & that means posting more. yay rite? i think so...

so life's going along and exams are going on and all and I'm home not taking them. ok, well i do have to take two. alg 2 because i need the exam to pass for the semester. The other i just have to take because i don't have a fourth exemption. Granted I'm only supposed to get 3 but it would be nice ya know? But ya so I'm goin to take the tech exam because it's not like it'll b much and then also my rickey will be in there as well as chester, stephen, and haylea. It shouldn't be too bad.

i wore a shirt today and get this...i liked how it looked. Surprise rite? Well it made my eyes look really sweet. so ya.

oh. i wana go see Shrek 2. It looks awesome. I love donkey. He's the best. I kinda feel like I'm like him at times. Do yall agree? I'm also dory from finding nemo though. She's just the most awesomest ever.'Just keep swimmin...'

Aren't we all so cool? My rickey is hiding behind the bunney's ear. Too cute! 

quick post but i just wanted 2 let yall know sumthin that 2 me iz incredibly exciting....I found the rest of my poetry!!! yay i can't believe it...15 more to add to the list...well congratulate me...:D

Well I'm back & living to say the least. Life has been kind of tough lately but I'm working through it i think. One thing though...i must say something....

i don't know how many people there are that like rickey or dislike him or our relationship but here it is plain and simple. I don't care. I know how I feel about him and I'm not going to change that because of how other people feel about him. I am truly happy with this kid. He makes me feel good about me. Not like other guys have but its different. It's new & great. I have so much fun every time I'm with him and can't explain the feeling I get. We will be together till we find a problem and not until then. I know what you are prob. thinking, 'Wow look at how much she cares about my opinion.' But Newsflash! It is my life and will always be that way. I go to those that I feel know me best and see what they think. Some have different opinions than me but the majority likes him. And they can also see how happy I am with him. Therefore don't think stuff like 'he's bad for her' or whatever. I'm happy rite? YES! So let me be please.

Anyways, had to get that off my mind but now I don't have all too much to say. School is coming to an end. We got our yearbooks in and they aren't all too horrible. Life's pretty good rite now. I'll leave you people with this stuff because that's all I can think of for now.

bloggin again and w/in a week! What a concept! Well I'm at my usual dwelling after school now a days & that would b my daddys office. ya just sitting here eating a yummy snocone from tc mm mm good. gotta love it.

well...Had TAKS 2day, not great but gives you a lot of free time to do whatever the heck you feel like after you finish. Me being the oh so smart person I am (yea rite) finished at 9:40ish & then had bout an hour & a half to blow. Well I started on a crossword which made me feel kinda stupid so I moved on to looking at a swimsuit catalogue( I need a new one for the summer) & that began to bore me, so lately I moved on to writing my rickey a note & colorin it cuz of coarse what else was there to do? Then I was so rudely interrupted by cayo known to most as john. nah just messin we started talking and then we moved on to be entrained by the great Carrie herself. Yes, she is very amusing. Got love her. I sure do! Then off to my English class for pizza and a movie. My English class is great. As I often say lol...gotta love it! Tom. We are getting subway & watchin yet another movie. Great stuff. We got two more days of this TAKS mess then an A day. Easy day in other words.

Oh wow! Advice time!!! NEVER EVER NEVER eat like a 1/4 of a pan of 7 layer dip. BIG MISTAKE! I know because I did yesterday. Yes I was the one smart enough to try that out. I was supposed to do a how-to speech in none other than speech class & well I decided to speak on how to make 7 layer dip. The requirements said that if it was food that you had to bring a finished sample. Well I did and I got an 81 on my speech because it was too short. How long can you make it I mean really but anyways not the point. Well I then continued on to pass out some to everyone that wanted to try it & then ended up with about a 1/4 left. Well me being the smart one I am decides 'hey I can just eat this & then I won't have to carry it around all day.' STUPID!!! No instead having to carry a simple little pan around school for a little while I instead made myself want to puke because I had so much food in me & not the greatest food to eat a lot of anyways yah know? That and I had onion breath day after that. Yummy! lol But, I learned my lesson. Take it from me...Just say No!

I don't know who will be reading this but I do have one thing to say to a lot of people. I'm sorry for what I did and to those that know what I'm talking about that means you. I shouldn't have done it and I know I made a huge mistake. I can't in any way make it less than it was and wish I could go back and not have done it. I am however paying for what I have done and it is not fun but I know I deserve it if not more.
To those I haven't really talked to lately, don't think I'm just ignoring you or anything. I just have been as I said yesterday grounded. I will sometime in the near future (in other words a week or so) get to you. Don't think I don't love you because like wow I do.
To those that I have wronged, I love you more than life itself and do not know where I would be without you. I have done so much to hurt you and have tried so hard to hide things from you. Please forgive me. I know what I have done is wrong and by saying all this I am just wanting to let you know. I appreciate everything you do for me and will always know deep in my heart that whether I understand it now or not that you are just trying to do the best thing for me. I thank you from the bottom of my heart an hope to somehow repay you someday.

I'm going to wrap this up for today and leave with this...

We can always ask for forgiveness and the Bible teaches it as well but we can never go back and undo things we've done. So watch your step and don't loose track. You will then not regret things you've done.

its been awhile but i've been busy....well not much 2 say but i'm grounded 4 doin sumthin stupid...ya i wont go into that ....

how iz every1? i'm good, school iz goin better cept 4 AAAHHH!!! TAKS tom! i hate TAKS ugh i hate tests but they're part of life rite? well i'm out 4 now maybe ill post sumthin l8r who knowz

it's been a few days...

well things are going great, i got my rickey & his hair lol...nah i like him for more than his hair. he's greatness. we've gone out on a few lil dates & 2 with Christina & chester who r now official...congrats to my bestest friend! love you chika!

life's goin along, school's well school & church is good. oh & guess wut!!! scarborough fair opens this weekend!!! isn't that the greatest thing ever??? i think so. i love that place! all the food, costumes (i soooo wish i had one), & just the atmosphere....u better believe i'll be there sat. when they open.

well not much else...summers gettin closer..yay! uhh thats all folks!

ya it's been a few days but hey its all good. i've been kinda busy. some1 keeps me up at nite so it's not like i can do much cuz i'm alwayz 2 tired but anywayz...

howz life 4 everyone? peachy i hope. i've been thining about a lot lately and i've made a lot of progress in a lot of ways & i'm proud of myself...u should b proud of me 2! :)

not much 2 really talk about, uh me n rickey r 2gether, uhh gettin a new cell phone, not doin 2 hott in my classes but tryin 2 do well, & uh my men r cuttin their hair..not 2 cool but wut can i do rite? well thats all 4 now..i know not 2 excitin but sry i have a life & i'm not goin 2 waste it on here all the time